i find myself nervous,voice shaking, for no reason, i find myself never in the need to find women, even though i have had girlfriends, and talked to women, nd had friends, and not benn shaky in tha past, it s a new phase, a terribly new cercumstance, and my life is rattong in it self to find a new obstacel to climb over, i am still, inactive, terrible socialy defective. and that it me, i am me, i am nice, i am fun, i am awful at situating myself around people my own age, i find them conluded in some area ive never ventured to, y mind is big, brave, unusual, i wanna be someone, i wanna be. but fuck. its just a thought.like all those ather FUCKINthoughts, suicide is not an optio, i think people who commit suicide are failures, i mean, i know who they are, so i love them, i know they are in pain, but they dont grasp what needs to be grasped, but in that light i have failed to grasp soemthing but i dont know what it is i have fialed to see.........
i find myself nervous,voice shaking, for no reason, i find myself never in the need to find women, even though i have had girlfriends, and talked to women, nd had friends you don't want a girlfriend? why is that a bad thing? its just one less stress in your life. and not benn shaky in tha past, it s a new phase, a terribly new cercumstance what new circumstance? sometimes when you have low confidence or are worried about how people will perceive you, its easy to get nervous. it happens to me sometimes too. the more social you are, the more confident you will become. it just takes a little time. and my life is rattong in it self to find a new obstacel to climb over, i am still, inactive, terrible socialy defective. socially defective? if you've had friends and girlfriends before, you obviously aren't socially defective. it seems like you just need to put yourself out there and find something that makes you happy, where you can meet new people. is there somewhere nearby where you could volunteer? thats a good way to meet new people and feel better about yourself. and that it me, i am me, i am nice, i am fun, i am awful at situating myself around people my own age, i find them conluded in some area ive never ventured to, then venture! you are the only one who can change your situation. you need to take action and meet people, as hard as it may seem sometimes. if they dont like you, fuck them. the world is full of people. y mind is big, brave, unusual, i wanna be someone, i wanna be. but fuck. its just a thought. its going to stay just a thought until YOU make it an action. like all those ather FUCKINthoughts, suicide is not an optio, i think people who commit suicide are failures, i mean, i know who they are, so i love them, i know they are in pain, but they dont grasp what needs to be grasped, is suicide really much more of a failing than sitting around doing nothing and wanting to die? if you do nothing but sit around and bitch about your life, you may as well be dead. because you sure as hell aren't living. but in that light i have failed to grasp soemthing but i dont know what it is i have fialed to see......... you need to take some steps to improving your life. if going out and doing things aren't enough to make you happy, then talk to a therapist. seriously. if you are truly depressed then you may need outside help, but in the end the only person who can do that for you is YOU.
what do you do for a living, i can find the answers you say by myself what makes this adatation of time correct, sometimes giving in to an answer is not the answer
i see your helping, thanks you, but at this same time, it is all introspective, it is all un heard of yet over played, i am depressed for no other reson then the fact that i have not met the moon, i have not written that novel, it is th little things, it is the huge facts. it is terribly and exausting, and i dont know how to explain it, reatin its value ot pertain to its needs, but action is the best way to fight it, so i am doing thiese stupid little thing, though i find huan interaction more confing, the conforming attitude i attribute to makes my sense of selfle less
First of all, you are too fucking drunk to find any answers right now. There are several ways out of this, but first you need to give yourself some time. Stop getting trashed, eat right, take vitamins, exercise. Start with that.
ive started, and you are negative, i think this is as healthy as sit ups, its a rising of thoughts, whenim sober im bored, ive been sober for monthis, its tough on the mind the grind, work work, no play no play, what is play WHAT IS PLAY
Alright then keep doing it, I dont give a fuck. The fact is I have been there, you arent telling me anything I dont already know.
bein negative ???? perhaps cuz we get sick n fucking tired of people riding around in there pitymewagon... pull yer head outta your ass and maybe you would see the light at the end of your "tunnel" and actually be able to do something with your life rather than bein a wastoid... tis impossible to do anything with clarity when you are cleansing your own colon
