do you ever become frightened when you think about dying? fear of the unknown, i guess. and worries about what will happen after you're gone - what will happen to the people in your life? i don't really have many people in my life. i have 7 pet birds, and i worry more about them than anything else - they're my children. but i don't fear dying. what i do fear is my lack of fear. did you ever hurt yourself such that the pain became so bad it just didn't hurt at all anymore? your body kicks in and numbs the pain.... i fear pain i am a grain of sand. life goes on.
I don't fear death, I fear not living. Seriously, I'm not afraid of what will happen after I die to my soul/spirit, and while I'd preffer not to die painfully(duh), the process doesn't concern me too much. What makes me sad is thinking about not ever seeing my friends, and baby brother and all the sadness they'd feel. Also, there are so many incredible things in life that I woudn't experience anymore. But on a side note, I'm not even sure how much my friends would miss me. Sure, they'd be very upset, but life would go on. I think my baby brother would be the only one who would be very hurt because he has special needs and when my mom goes, I'm the only one left to take care of him. Their have been times when I wanted to die, but he's always been a reason to live. Peace
