This Dream i had last night is the only dream that has really given me the feeling of a concealed meaning. It has many twists and turns, accompanied by many factors and details that could be interpreted. I can't figure them, though i remember them in strong detail(in most areas). ---------------------- Walking down the sidewalk of a seemingly empty town street with two close friends(one large and one small(who's identities i cannot recall, strangely)) , in the late evening where the sun has almost completely past the horizon only leaving enough light to see things in more than just a silhouette, i come pass an unfamiliar restaurant with five figures at the entrance. On each side tottemmed two figures each; On the left, two twin goblins with obscure facial gestures; On the right, A dwarven witch atop a figure with a mask, featureless besides the eyes and mouth slits. The fifth figure was a large, mounted hogs head, centered above the banner heading the restaurant, written in a language and script i did not recognize. I find myslef at home in my house as if i had been there for a wile, thinking back to how strange the place was. A sudden burst collapses the wall that separates my room from the outside as two large goblins thrust themselves at me trough the dust. I run. I notice that there were no signs of people, as if the town was uninhabited. Out of random, I lead them to a quarry(a lot of land where the earth is carved at and mined with heavy machinery) (witch i often end up in some way or another in dreams where i am being chased). After hiding, and watching them, i throw a rock at one, then pointing to the other in blame causing them to fight and eat each other. As i make my way back home i notice what little light the sunset(witch i had now concluded was stuck in time) gave me was producing a large shadow that enveloped my own from behind. I turn to see a large, hulking black figure, made of silhouette except for the plain white mask it adorned on it's face. With a groaning sound similar to twisting metal, it raises its arm to thrash me. I cannot recall how i did it, but i managed to bash its mask with a bat. In result, it dissipated, crying in the same groan as earlier. Leaping on top of a car, and from it, at me, i was charged at buy a small, stout, ugly woman with hair like fire, clutching wooden spoons in each hand. Out of all the creatures that had attacked me, this one caused the most panic and downright fear in me. So, once again, i ran. I ran like i had never felt myself run before, hoping that a sanctuary would show itself; Something, anything. The crazed she devil chased me right back to my home, and as if i couldn't stop myself, i tried seeing refuge in my room, open to the world without its wall. She stopped and slowly approached, the intent to kill clear in her face. Desperate and without any control of my actions in this realm, i resorted to a forceful attempt at seduction by pushing her onto my bed and forcing a kiss on her beastly lips. I found them soft and different from what i imagined. i back up and found that she had stopped her attack, and that instead of a beast, she was merely just a very homely girl. My memory, though lacking any detail about the event that fallowed only tells me that we did make love. I wake(still in dream), remembering what had taken place. Where i would be mortified at losing my virginity(and yes, i am a virgin by choice), i felt reprieve. As if a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders a warmth that i had begun feeling during the act itself. I look over to see a beautiful girl looking at me with a deep blue stare. Her face, flawless; Her hair, long, strait, clean, neat, and a bright gorgeous orange/brown. Nothing about her was what i ever wanted in a girl. The pretty types always seemed like they had no soul or individuality. But her, I couldn't stop looking at her. Though i hadn't understood it until she touched my shoulder and kisses me lightly on the cheek to wish me good morning, I was in love with his girl. Clinging to each other all the while, we went to my school(within walking distance) where a charity event was occurring in the library. We put toys in a glass box with sand at the bottom, donating them to less-fortunate children. There, we both talked with my friends and continued to be overly affectionate with each other, stoping only to scowl at a few of my "peers" who took toys out of the box and played with them until some broke, my dream was then very peaceful. That is, until the now all-to-familiar, sunset untimely showed itself again. The girl(nameless) looked grim at the window, then at me. a crash was heard outside followed by a large, high pitched, inhuman scream/squeal before the wall suddenly crashed inward. A huge cloaked figure with broad shoulders swept into the library. I let out a silent shout of horror as i realized that atop those shoulders was a morbid looking hogs head, with scars and stitches as if it had been poorly put back together by an unskilled taxidermist. Holding my love close, i wish to look at her, but dare not take my eyes of the abomination before me. As it turns its head, its beady, black, lifeless eyes fall on me. ---------------------- After that i wake up for real.
Some people like a good horror/romance flick and I guess that could influence what we allow into our dreamstates. I guess I somewhat meglomaniac because my nightmare consisted of being unexpectedly informed that I was president and I didn't have a speech ready. I was also informed that the ship had a 'vague' helm, kind of opposite to a 'weather' helm where one has to fight to keep the boat going where you want it. I was also informed that I would have to trim the hedges in the Rose Garden whether I wanted to or not. I was peturbed about that. The hedges looked fine to me.
Sounds to me that you feel pressured by and resent responsibility. Maybe you feel that you have responsibilities to people you didn't ask for and struggle with difficulty because you wish they didn't rely on you as much as they do. After careful consideration i came up with a few theories including that it was possible that the beasts represented parts of my personality that I'm either ashamed of or don't agree with. Its also possible that the girl i felt so strongly for could be a representation of one of my aspects that i should appreciate more. Or it could be a representation of myself and that thats what i should apreciate more.
