The worst possible thing I can imagine

I've been having this recurring fear lately. Basically, I think I've developed a fear of falling.

I'm not sure exactly why I've been having these thoughts/daydreams, but I have been once in a while and want to get it off my chest.

Anyway, I could most easily describe this by saying that my current worst fear is going to this...place. You could call this hell...and it's seriously the worst thing I can imagine.

So your whole existence is falling out of a tall (like 60 story) window, then when you hit the ground you feel the sensation of your body being liquified by the impact for a split second - then it's over, for 1 second. Then, the whole thing repeats itself again...and again, for all eternity, NEVER to stop.

Having a fear of falling, having this odd and frightening daydream play in my head is pretty frightening. Guess I need some way to deal with this. Plus the fact that in my mind I feel as though maybe in this universe of infinite possibility I could find myself there.

 

or is that just what you think it would feel like when && if one day you actually fall

 

I don't really think this is going to happen to me, it's purely a product of my imagination...but that doesn't make it any less horrifying to think about.

As far as the falling thing goes, I have in the recent past taken a fall from quite a height, and survived. It's likely that's where the fear of falling came from.

And being a Christian, I at least believe in the distinct possibility that there is a hell. And for me, this is probably the closest envisionment of it that I have. The key part being that it's a part of a never-ending torture. So I guess yeah, I do believe that I could find myself there. Even though I don't believe I'll end up in hell (if there IS one) I can not say it's 100% impossible. And I would appreciate it if no one calls me a fool for my religious beliefs...these forums are overwhelmingly non-Christian.

I don't think about it all the time, only once in a while.

But it's just something that's in the back of my mind and it's having no real effect on my daily life.

 

As my boss always told me when I had to go up a 30 foot ladder to paint a fucking ceiling, "don't be afraid of falling, be afraid of hitting the ground."

Worked for me...