I've wasted my youth.

On love.
4 years, but it felt like 30.
From the age of nine, it was a crush.
By 10 she was my girlfriend.
By 11 I would do anything for her.
By 12 I would kill myself for her.
By 13 I grew older than my friends, and older than her, and I loved her.
By 14 she left me for dead.

Because of her I grew up too quickly, emotionally, mentally, socially. Then, she just leaves me here.
Now I'm a trainwreck, a shell of careless, regretful, antisocial bastard with an ego that could kill a moose.
I drink a lot. I toke a lot more. And every time I cry. I'm 14 going on 30. And it's her fault. She could have slowed me down, but even though I wouldkill for her, she wouldn't even lift a finger for me.
She wouldn't even try.
So now she wasted me. She talks to me in school every now and again. I joke around, tease her, talk. But behind every sentence I just want to scream "You killed me."

Fuck the world.

 

You'll get over it. You're young, and everyone has painfull youth experiences.

 

It doesn't sound like anything was wasted. I was in a relationship for 5 years, from 16 to 21. It was one train wreck after another, but I wouldn't say those years were lost, or a waste. I learned more from it than I have from anything to date. Yea, it sucks, it will suck for a while, but you'll be a better person when you've moved on. The world is a beautiful place, even though it may not seem so at this moment.

 

Mitok - you are only 14. You have a whole life ahead of you to find true love. Give it a rest for a while.

 

Did you learn any lessons in this relationship? If you can truly answer yes, then you haven't wasted your time.

 

Dude, you have to learn, EVERYONE suffers from a broken heart one time or another. It happened to me last year, I got over it in a few weeks. Now, I'm actually glad she went with that other dude, it opened my eyes to what the world is really like.

 

Mitok - you are always strongest at the cracks, when they have healed.

 

It's not only her fault by the way. I guess after awhile you can't even understand that you expected this relationship that started so very early to last for your whole life.

 

Learn to be happy and content being single or you will never be happy in a realtionship.

 

your 14 get over it. im 24 and just had my girlfriend of 9 years leave me for another guy. plus she is the mother of my child so she broke up my family. get over it man.

 

Yeah man i agree you're only 14. Your youth is not even close t oover.

 

Days go by quickly at your age. Consider the fact that you got to love. At such a young age, your next g/f is going to benefit from your experience and so on. There will be more girls and more love and more heartache. I ended my 16 year marriage last year. You want heartache. After almost a year, I am happier now than I ever was with her. Here is my advice, if you never love, you will never hurt, but you will never love. very simple. If you love someone, you may get hurt, but the love is worth it.

 

I think you've all forgotten what it feels like to be 14

Breaking up is horrible, regardless of the age.

It's important to just keep remembering, you will get over it. You will move on. Just keep that as a mantra and don't try to rush it. You'll be over it when you're ready to move on. Mourn if you need to, it was a loss.

 

I dont wana sound gay but im feelin the same except im 17, if anyone cares to read... i met her when i was 14 and took her virginity away than was with her for 2 years after that and even lived with her last year when i was 16, but soon after i turned 17 last year in the middle of summer she met somone at her cottage and i just decided to break up with her cuz i over reacted but the day after she was already with the guy she told me she met... anyways this was like 6 months ago and im still getting over it, but people change with the times always so you gota just move on, its not worth dwelling on or doing anything against the other person.. peace

 

Look into a new religion, you feel great when ya find one that suits you and find god

 

haha your 14 ofcoruse everything seems like a big deal. Get over it dude. It may seem like your never going to but you will, everyones been there.

 

This surprised me.

See from my own experience at fourteen, Mitok, I felt that I was too young to be concerned with settling down with only one person. To me, love is, a very small part of my life. As I grow older it is becoming more and more tempting to go out and get involved with someone but I still remain fairly true to the knowing that love comes, and it goes.

May not seem it now, but you are 14. You've hit puberty and it's a big thing. You need to remember that the average person may like to about 80 or even 90+ if they are fortunate enough. Meaning an entire lifetime to get into a relationship. You're a good guy and I know you'll manage.

 

pay attention to what you're feeling. you're in the middle of one of the biggest lessons of your life. The first life altering crushing love loss will teach you more about yourself than so many other things. Good stuff man. Congratulations. When you come out the other side you'll be a new man.

 

i did the same thing this girl did to you. and everything, even the ages match. I acted like a bitch! And now...i realise i had loved him all this time, but only after he said another class mate is the prettyest girl in class, and in the world. now i love him, he is my best friend, but i know our relationship will never be like it used to. Maybe she feels the same, maybe she doesn't. I say you get over it, like my boy did.

 

awww dude i know how you feel that sucks! i have a simalar situation at the moment oly with a boy i love him and well he doesnt love me!