Tonight I am sad. It's 2 AM and I should be asleep. I am alone -- as always. I feel helpless in my life. Unable to resolve or affect the issues that trouble me. I feel the rage of the helpless, who's fate is decided by others -- and decided lightly. And I feel guilty, having learned of anothers tradgedy that makes my problems seem paltry. Yet, my problems are problems, and I am troubled by them still. I am tired of struggling and not gaining ground. I feel broken in my soul. I hope tomarrow is a better day. And that I find a better way.
It really makes me mad when people say, "Cheer up, it could be much worse," because that makes it seem like your problems are petty or unimportant which is rarely the case. If you have troubles that bother you, it's just as important as the people who need help in third world countries, for example. Just because we're fortunate enough to have it okay doesn't mean you don't have a right to feel discouraged or worried about your own life. In this world, there's one thing that's certain, as long as you're living, the only person you HAVE to look out for in the long run is yourself. In most cases, it's hard to do much for people affected by tragedy but give them moral support and volunteer whatever time or supplies you can afford to give up. We shouldn't feel guilty to be in better situations than other people, nor should we feel angry because someone is better off than us. It is the sad circle of life and bad things happen to everyone and every single person will one day feel sorrow, so all you can do is just pray for those who currently are and do what you can to give them aid. Your own problems aren't made invalid just because someone else has it worse off right now, so focus on getting your own life where it needs to be and worry about others when you're done. How can you help anybody if you can't help yourself first?
Just don't make a big deal about try not to think it. That's what i do when i have whatever problems or just feel down.
read about learned helplessness and how to counteract it. it's actually pretty simple and easy. good luck.
Thanks everyone for all your kind and supportive words. Last night I sort of fell down a dark emotional hole. I've got the same life situation today as last night, but feel much more up beat and grounded about it. I always say I won't let things get to me -- but every so often, they just do any way. Then I have a mini-break down, wallow in the darkness and dirt for a while -- then pick myself up and go at life again. And once in a while it just helps to let out the AAAAAAAAAgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh! This was one of those times. I really appreciate everyones response. Once in a while some encouragement helps. Thanks!!!
