Not sure if you've had an experience like this but it has plauged me for a long while now. About 2 years ago i moved over seas, one reason was for the experience, the second was for a girl. I was 24 at the time and i'd known this girl for about 10 years. Random meet over the internet a very long time ago. We had met up and had a few 2 week holidays here an there before we both said that we should move closer and take it further. The first time we met, she was in a relationship so the whole thing was just as friends, but it was not till the second last night that things got a little more raunchy even though she was in a relationship. Once she returned after about 3 more months she broke up with her boyfriend for cheating on her, and said that we should get together. I went on a 4 week holiday, and sourced work and sponsorship for a visa, and then flew back home, it was then very prompt, within a few more weeks i had a visa and packed up and moved over. When i arrived things were good, we went travelling together and really built a relationship from just friends to romantic partners. But after a few weeks i had to start work and from there things went really pearshaped. I started to get bad feelings about her, she had a lot more male friends then female (no problem) but they all seemed to be ex boyfriends. This made me un comfortable. Over a period of the next 12 months i fell in love with this girl, and then i had to leave. We had problems all the way through the relationship. It has now been 1 year since i got back, and even though we never broke it off we lost contact, and have not talked since the day i left. I did love this girl, never said i did, but to this day i can still not get her out of my head, and every time i try to find new romance i get an image of her in my head and it breaks me apart, and i get all cold and just freeze. It is really strange, i am not a 6 pack or gym buffed guy i am an all round aussie guy who has an issue stiching up a past and getting on with life.
