I did it again! this could be bad lol

I made a post last week about my first time doing coke. I just did it again last night for my second time and it was even better, I mean WAY better.

But now I am seeing the bad side of it. I was with about 10 people but not all of us were doing it. One kid pitched $10 bucks and only got one line because my other friend kept giving me some of the other kids coke because he didnt like him. And then when the kid that only got one line said that he was'nt lit my friend said "you only pitched ten, so your only getting one line" Then he said why and he said "beacuse Ian (me) pitched $20 you greasy bastard"

I didnt find that fair beacuse I got 5 and a half lines and some nummies.

Then a bit later I was outside having a smoke I couldnt feel my face and it was so awsome, and then my other friend gave me a joint beacuse he thought he would get to smoke more weed (but he had to leave). Then I heard a motley crue song (I fucking hate motley crue) but then all of a sudden I thought "holy shit, motley crue is soooo good) I was listening to kickstart my heart for the first time and it blew me away. I was so lit and whenever I took a drag off my smoke i would get even more lit. Then I was so fucked I had to walk up and down the street beacuse I had to move.


Now it's the next day and Im sort of craving it but I have no money, is there anyway not to want it anymore?

shit....im fucked I hink im hooked sort of. So can anyone please give me some tips of how not to crave it please?:&

 

truthfully, i think it would be best just to buy some weed and push through it. in a few days you wont "crave" it anymore. dont try using pills to help you get off coke. you will probably end up hooked on pills then.

 

Buy some caffeine pills. When you start feeling the need for the rush, take them. And smoke alot of weed.

I've never done anything really heavy so this is just a theroy.

 

What did I tell you would happen kid in the last post ? Just wait this is only the beginning it might not go like this for you if you keep it up but this is the road you are on and the odds are you will get strung out if you keep it up.Soon blowing lines will turn into a every friday night thing. Then you will add saturday night into the mix. Then instead of buying a few grams between all your frinds you will buy a few 8 balls because you will want to do even more coke on the weekends a gram or a few is not enuff you will want more and more. Soon after the people who are blowing lines will stop hanging out with the kids who don't. you will only want to hang with the people who blow lines on the weekends, After you start to really love the feeling of coke and start to really get hooked it will be hard to get enjoyment from anything else becasue the only time your endorphins flow is when you are on coke, So the week will be a total drag even smoking pot will not be fun. you will get no enjoyment from anything at all only when you are on coke will you be happy. You will only look foward to the weekends and doing coke on friday and saturday night. All your money will start going towards coke on the weekend. Soon it will turn to a few days a week thing and buy that time money will be real tight.so you will start to pawn your things off, say goodbye to all your items like your playstation,stero,DVD's,Jewelry,any collections etc all valubles will be sold for coke sooner or later.Then when all thats gone you will start to steal eather from people or stores.Buy this time you are a full out coke head.And its not soon before you probably get arrested or your parents know and you will get sent to rehab.I forgot to mention the come down from coke just keeps getting worse and worse the more you do it. Right now its not bad at all but just wait.First you will get really drunk when there is no more coke left, but thats a bitch and not to mention a terrable hang over the next day, so you will start to take pills like painkillers or Benzo's to help the come down. you might even start to sniff Herion to stop the come dwon from coke thats how I got into Herion. My point is most people hooked on coke bad are also hooked on other shit to stop the come down from coke and so they can fall asleep, Kid the raod you are going down is just like the way I got into coke. and It lead me into becoming a Junky, Coke was the first drug I got addicted to and my life has not been the same sence. I wish now looking back I never tried the shit it took away about 10 to 12 years of my life buy being addicted to it and other hard drugs.I just hope you make the right choice, please don't start doing this shit all the time, I wish you would never do it again at all !!! But I would be a hypocrite telling you that. I still blow a few lines from time to time maybe ounce a month or every other month, But no where like I did when I was hooked. I totaly respect that shit now. and I had to stop for a few years anyway before I could mess with it every now and then.Please kid just be smart and only do this shit every now and then, I wish you would not do it at all !!!!!!!!!!!

 

Now im scared

But I think that I only will do it on saturdays. (I know it sounds bad)

But I dont have a lot of money, so thats good because I wont be able to buy it. And I wouldnt sell anything because i'd get killed.


But to be honest I did think of selling one of my guitars and the sterio and my phone (but only for a really high price)


Now im fucked up and I think Im gonna ruin my life or something. I want to tell myself I'll never do coke again but I cant because it was soo fun.

I've already quit E and I know I'll never do it again. I dont think I'll ever quit pot but I know thats basically harmless to my body so Im ok with that.

I just dont know what to do and I know it all sounds like a cliche but I actually understand everything about drugs now. I've lost the craving for coke for now but im worried it will return.

Is this all normal? :hysterica

 

Coke is good, but not that good. I quit doing it after everyday use for 2 weeks just a little bit ago. It was only your second time too. All you need is some fucking self control. I don't plan to do it for an odd number of months. I'll probably buy a Birthday Ball, lol, than be done with it again.

 

Is there anyway to get that feeling out of you?

You know, the feeling were it feels like somethings just missing but you dont know?

I think I might just need a smoke, but this feels different.


Im fucked up :lol:

 

You just stop. Or you could do it about as much as I did, than stop, cause you'll realize how much of a waste of money it is and how you really don't get that much satisfaction from it. I mean who wants to do some great shit, than be upset when it is all gone later that hour/day.

 

how long does it last for this feeling to go away, because it's back now.

Is there anything else that can make it stop?

 

Its hard. I've been doing it every weekend for a couple months now. Sometimes twice a week. Never more than a gram split between me and someone else, sometimes as little as one line for 1 of the 2 weekly uses. Normally I split a gram with someone at least once a week though. I'm not proud of it, and I wish I had more over control over it, but I am at least thankful that it has remained at this level for a good bit of time now and it has not gotten worse.

I just hate how I feel every day, and the cravings I get for it when I drink booze. I never do it when I am not drinking. Using coke on it's own just makes me feel tweaked and is not nearly as euphoric. But it's heaven with booze.

 

so basically Im going to feel like shit unless Im lit?

 

tranceedeciate. Dam you are so right coke and alchool go together like peanut butter and Jelly. Every time I drink I want to do coke. That is when you get the worst cravings buy far !!! also captain cannabis if you keep doing coke yes you will always have that craving for it. I have cravings for Coke and Herion all the time. I can just control them now and they are not as bad now as they were when I was in my teens all the way up to my mid 20's. I just no now what life was like when I was a strung out junky and I don't ever want to go back to being like that, so that also scares me away from doing hard drugs all the time and getting addicted to them again.I just hope you don't have to go threw all that shit with addiction.Hey some people can do coke only on the weekends and not think about it at all during the week and if they don't do it one weekend it will not bother them. and the drug has no affect on there life.But I know now I am not that type of person bottom line I am a addict .Ounce I start doing coke on the regular thats it for me I am off to the races on a 2 week long coke and Herion Binge. All drug cravings will go away but it takes time. you got to stay away from the drug, The more you do the the drug you crave for the worse the cravings will get. And the more you will become addicted to that drug. Just try to stop ? The cravings will go away it just takes time if you think this is bad just wait you have not felt shit yet ? you just started doing it. It gets worse and worse 1000 times worse Kid !!!!!

 

captain your a fuckin idiot, i told you your gonna end up doing it more and more, watch you in about 2 months your gonna be doing it every fuckin week, then twice a week, then a couple times before school, to everyday, it happened to me and trust me you think your hooked after 2 times of doing it, try doing it everyday for 2 months straight and imagine how you'll feel, im not trying to be an asshole im trying to tell you the truth from experience.

, for me it used to be me and my best friend on friday, skip school, buy a gram, take the bart to the skatepark (I dont skate much but i must say its the funnest thing ever when your on it) and then take the bart back to town and buy another gram, go to my friends house and do lines and smoke chewy until we crash and wake up with an empty feeling inside like your missing something, then your gonna buy it again and get that rush that you've been missing and you will be a slave to it everyday. but nothing is ever going up my nose again for sure.

 

hamilton, ontario COOL my dad lives there, i visit often.
as for cocaine, yes it is indeed a wonderful drug however very addictive and expensive. don't use it too often. i got hooked on that shit a year ago and lost everything, had a miscarriage (didn't know i was pregnant), lost my apartment/job/boyfriend, etc... then rehabbed myself alone in my bedroom and have been off all drugs for well over a year.
just be careful my fellow canadian!
exes and oh's.

 

I think that feeling is always there, is just when we are high on anything, it's easy to forget it and when it goes away, it feels stronger, but it's no different. I say sit, close your eyes and breathe, it really helps.

 

It is very addictive, I was 18 the first time I did it, I didnt "like" it, since the first time, I said I wouldnt do it again and I spent until this year saying that after I did it. It's very seductive and you end up having a love/hate relationship with it. I havent done it since July 16, it was my brother's bday and before that I had a few months without doing it. Sometimes when I feel bad I miss it, but is not it, is the feeling of being fuck up on something and not thinking, but then I think, is it really gonna help? I breath and do something else, like writing or painting.