Lately I have developed a serious problem. I don't care. Like I don't care at all, I have no motivation, and I'm extremely intolerant and irritable. I was never the nicest person in a room, but I used to be able to at least care or pretend to and lately nothing really matters to me and idk why. I know this isn't really a great place for this, but I just have no clue why the sudden change. It's like I finally just accepted that nothing matters. I've always leaned towards that side, but I'm more and more convinced everyday that nothing is important beyond my own happiness and even that is only important to me. I'm not doing well in college and while it's my fault I also have to partly blame the university for not providing me with adequately challenging work. They have me in a math class that covers linear algebra and order of operations, and I was in honors calc in HS. I just can't bring myself to care about work that is so mentally dreadful. I don't think I'm college material and I really feel like I made a mistake. I kind of want to join the marines just because it seems exciting. I really have no problems with killing or being killed, it doesn't seem to matter much to me. I just want stimulation. I really feel like alot of my life right now is just boring and useless, I need stimulation and competition I thrive in that type of environment and right now this is NOT that environment. It sounds stupid but I really believe what I'm saying. I don't care about myself, others, the planet, or even life in general and I don't know why.
I have some words that can help you. You are born dieing. You are born so that you can die. So untill you die what do you want to do? Do that.
lol I dont know what that helps at all. Everyone knows that. I would maybe try getting a new job or looking around for new opportunities. I dont see why college isnt working for you though, I know I'm not doing so well in college but thats probably because I'm always with my girl or working.
Little Honey, you are depressed. There is no shame in being depressed. It happens to a lot of people at different times in their lifes. You need to see a doctor and take some antidepressants. It will make a huge difference in your life and your outlook. Please listen to an older woman who really knows what she is talking about, me. Go see a doctor, a medical doctor...trust me.
If you don't care about taking pills too then the old lady is right. j/k lol I take zoloft for anxiety and it really does help to renew your daily sense of life I guess. I have more energy, more ambition, I'm able to do things that I wasn't able to before. There are other drugs out there like zoloft that maybe you should talk with your doctor about. I got my prescription from my midwife! lol
you don't need more drugs to feel 'better' who says you need to CARE for every single thing? Like fallout said; What do you want to do before you die? because that's really the only thing in life that's guaranteed. so why not live life the way you want, before life itself stops caring?
Find a club that interests you on campus. Lord knows I wouldn't have stuck around if it wasn't for being exccited about clubs I was involved with. academics are only like 25% of the college experience. Its a cliche, but college is some of the best time of your life. Cheers
There's nothing wrong with your thought process. I want stimulation in my life as well, we all do whether we admit it or not. I say to do what you wish to do at whatever cost. If you truly feel that you wanna go to the marines then do it. You may regret things later in life if you took the bitch route and did what other people wanted you too. You seem pretty intelligent and I'm confident that you can figure shit out. If you wanna talk more (because I'm apathetic to this world as well) hit me up on aim. Sn is t4pyro peace be with you.
if you are feeling unsatisfied because your classes are too easy then take some harder classes. college can be as easy or as hard as you want it to be. just take some higher level courses. if you were in AP calc or whatever in highschool, then you probably should not have taken the math class that you are in, you registered for the wrong class man. As far as your apathy towards life goes, I've felt that way too. Is there anything that motivates you? Find what that thing is and focus on it.
Don't let college get you down. Thats so trivial. Be happy you are in college, and not in some genocide in Darfur or something. Also it's easy to be in your environment and not worry about death, but trust me the minute you are faced with it you will wish you were back at college. It's college man, go get drunk and get laid. Just don't worry so much.
Wow this poor guy, that really is sad. But the last thing you need is to kill someone for stimulation. Somehow you need to find a way to let love into your heart. Love is like the glue that binds atoms together, without it the world would fall into peices. And the whole world is no different than an individual because we are all part of the same thing. I truly hope something profound opens you to a more respectful way of looking at your own, and everyone elses, existance, and honestly I think something will change in you very soon. Good luck and keep moving
I feel like we are in a similar place bro, and it's definitely not fun. College can be very boring... there is a lot of conformity, a lot of hoops to jump through, and most of the classes are jokes. I think you need to find some things outside of school that will give you some stimulation. Play some music, read some books, play a sport, etc. Take care of business in the classroom by setting aside just a couple of hours a day for school work, and then just focus on ENJOYING yourself for the rest of the time. Now, don't try too hard to enjoy yourself, or else it won't happen! This is a common trap. If you look to hard for fun, you'll never find it. But, get in touch with what has always made you happy... good friends, video games, reading. Don't worry too much about the future, don't get too down on yourself (it seems like you're really beating yourself up over... what exactly? subpar grades? it's no big deal dude, you can always pull them up, just get your head out of your ass) and again, just enjoy yourself. Don't hesitate to PM me or IM me, because I definitely know how you feel, and I think we could help each other out.
I forgot to point out this major contradiction... you either care, or you don't. If you don't care, then fuck being irritable, because you don't care. If you're irritable, though, it probably means you really do care and you don't think you're doing a good job, so your defense mechanism is simply to pretend like you don't care. Think about this.
My college makes everyone take retard courses that's why I'm in such low level classes, and it irks me that I'm failing classes on shit I knew in eighth grade. The highlight of college was rugby and now it's lifting. and I mean whenever someone runs their mouth about something I tend to get irritable.
Im in the same situation. I dont do anything anymore, nothing seems worthwhile. I flip out on people constantly for no reason at all. Everything just pisses me off. I say I dont care, but like stayloose says, i must care, otherwise i wouldnt be in this situation. I feel like im in a rut, and ruining precsious years of my life. Im taking meds, but they arent helping. I keep trying different ones, and they all have no effect, but i just keep searching, because i know what it felt like when i enjoyed life, and I just want that feeling back.
Damn, why is it so hard to enjoy life? I remember when I did, but then again that was before the time when I knew life is shitty. Taking pills to have a better life (to me) is the biggest load of shit ever.
find your heart, and follow it. center, breathe, and remember, you are a PERSON with an impact to make on the world, and learning about your feelings is important. try to identify why you dont care. meditate. Blessings.
I'm starting to feel the same as you man. Its just hard to get excited about anything and I don't really care much about anything. I think I'm depressed but I don't see how...
