Well, I talked to him. Finally! But the awnser wasn't positive. I asked him if he felt something for me and he said "At this moment I don't feel anything and can't feel anything for anyone." He apoligised and said that he made a mistake. I told him that I was a bit shocked, that I couldn't think that he would do anything with a girl without having any feelings for her. He said "yeah, me too" And he said that if he knew I was in love with him he would have never done it, that he normally never does these kind of things, that I don't have to be scared that there's someone else because there isn't, and if there's a problem I can always come talk to him about it. Things I already knew, but I just needed to hear from him. I do think that he has some feelings for me, but that he just doesn't want to face it. I don't know.. We went for a drink and talked a bit, he said to me that he was unhappy, he said it a couple of times. And for some reason I didn't ask why, but I know why. His ex broke up with him more than a year ago, she ran off with one of his best friends. She told him things like 'I want to accomplish something in my life and you don't do anything!' And he's still not over it. I understand, they were together for 2 years. This is the thing that bothered me the most, that he is still unhappy because of her, and he just doesn't do the effort to make himself happy... It's like he doesn't want to get over her, that he can't accept that they're never going to be together. He's always joking about it, saying in a 'funny' way bad things about himself. Bringing himself down. Right now I just want to be friends, but it hurts to see him so unhappy...And it hurts to be around him... I want to be there for him as a friend, I don't expect anything more, I just want him to forget about her and be happy. But this summer we were out, and he was drunk. He was always laying his arm around me, holding my hand. He fell asleep on my shoulder, then on my lap. I took care of him until 6o'clock in the morning, him sleeping on me for a couple of hours, holding my hand. While we were standing outside waiting for his friend to take his bike he was stil laying his arm around me, playing in my neck with his fingers. I walked a bit with them home and while riding his bike his arm was still around me and I'm sure he bend over to try to kiss me, I didn't let him. After this everything was normal, we got along great as friends, when I saw him in the weekend he always came to sit with me, even when his friends were somewhere else. Constantly staring in my direction. When he had a couple of drinks he would always take my hand... He was always so sweet to me and everybody noticed it. I just can't believe that this doesn't mean anything to him. Is this really just friendship? I just think it's odd. But like I said. The most important thing for me now is to make him happy, be there for him. And if it's just friends then that's fine... I just needed to get it off my chest. Thanks
