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when i trip sometimes, and i am trying to experience non-game existence/ ego death my family comes into my mind. and i cant get them out. i try to integrate myself with them and become one, but i know in they dont agree with any of the drugs i do. i feel like its holding me back from my experiences with a sense of guilt. what should i do?

 

Look on all experience as a spiritual one no matter how it comes across ... do not limit your own self. You are the one in charge for your experience, no matter how the others react .... so make it a door, not an obstacle ...

And as long as you're pushing yourself into what you call ego death and becoming one with the universe, you may deal with the concept of pushing as much ... but to feel one with all that is, you gotta allow all that is (included all the others). Accept your own self fully. Love who you are and work on yourself.

Just a suggestion.

 

are you around your family when you trip?

 

Don't push yourself to experience something. You might be missing some other great things like that. Relax and let the psychedelics lead you. Maybe there is something else you should understand before you can be one with everything. Work on yourself. In order to love everyone and be one with everything you must first love yourself.
The limits are there where you put them.

 

its not that im pushing myself into it. ive def experienced it. its just a matter of the fact that i want it to last longer. and usually my family is what brings me back down into my shitty reality. and no im not around them when i trip. i find that when i take larger doses its better, but i heard u dont need to do that? i dunno.

 

You just have to control your thought process, when you start thinking about things you don’t want to, then stop yourself and think about something else.