I wanna get this off my chest. Randomness..

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whenever there is growth beyond our known mind universe, because it is an alien unknown experience outside our mental constructs, there is a process of settling into new energies and awareness

be happy

 

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I thought I was the only one feeling "weird" these days. The last two days have been a "didn`t give a dam about anything" I work evenings most the time. So I would stay in bed from 12mid. till 2-3pm. then get up and go to work. I have other things going on sort of, similar to yours. Long distant relationship...need to get to my guy, in kentucky and I live in Northern New York. Up by the Canadian border. Haven`t heard from him in a while. Miss him wicked. Trying to get ahold of him. Tried everything can`t seem to do it at the moment. anyway, I have been going from Dead butt calm to the next minute, crawling out of my skin!!!!!!
Had to take a "breather" at work, consisted of a cig. a chair out back of where I work, and read a few pages in a book "Tramp for The Lord." Corrie Ten Boom. Well, in there was a section of when you feel so left out of things--in the dark kind of feeling,
That is when you are in the shadow of the Lord. You can`t see the light because you are under his wing, he is shielding the crap that could hurt you. I know this sounds way off base, but, it explained a lot of what was going on in this life for me. For the moment.
Weird as it may all sound there is another world that we can not see, and no I have not quite lost my mind,,,YET, just Crazy. At your age I use to get the same dam thing. People use to say to me that it was anxiety,,, B.S. Everytime I would feel this way even with my guy, something would happen like him loosing a logging truck and totalling it as logs went down in the gully in the mountains of Kentucky. He turned out to be o.k There was one day when I cried every time I turned around at work. People were thinking "There is something really wrong with her cause she never!!! cries."
He almost had an accident with another truck before the other, because some one stopped short and with a fully loaded logging truck at 60 or more miles an hr., you just can`t!!! stop on a dime. This happened the same day that I was crying and couldn`t control when or where I did it. There are other things in my earlier part of my life that I could get into but it is too much for now. So you could very well be dealing with the fact that you will spend the rest of your life, getting these warning signs from the other side, (heaven beings) use them to the best of your ability, trust your heart, there is one thing about it, it will not make sense for sure at the time. But it will be known to you when the time comes that you are to know. It is the teaching of Faith. Wish I could explain it better but this is the first time I have had to and now I don`t know why I am to you but I was pointed this way to your Thread. So if you need something else holler, pm etc. Good luck. It will be a hard road sometimes, trust your heart, Remember that,,,Dreamin`

 

man, if i knew a guy who made me feel like that...

i'd run like hell!

 

Is that good or bad, which would you run.? Smilin`

 

i duno but you strike me as a nice guy

 

have you got your period?

maybe you are just excited about something, and you dont even realise it yourself. that's what the butterflies anxiety thing sounds like to me. id just keep chugging.

 

anytime you love someone youre risking hurt


you can feel it




theres no real way around it

 

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no not you