i guess what i was trying to say ghost is it doesnt really matter as long as you are doing what YOU want and feel comfortable with it or what you might HAVE to do to eat or not freeze!
ok i just might do that! thanks for your help and listening (reading). ive came up with one last idea, im going to contact the special needs home here, and there is a deaf woman that teaches some classes sometimes,. it would be a good start, hopefully shes still doing that. plus it would be alot more educational to actually have someone teach you sign language that is actually deaf! im really starting to feel better about everything,. i just know that its that time that i need to make a change,. its changes for me and my husband,. were working very very hard to move forward. as newlyweds, weve made some stupid mistakes and weve fell back a bit.