I love myself too much, and the only thing i love more than myself is my family, which even then i might love myself more. It's just that i feel like I am exactly what i want to ever be. But then there is death, and i tend to believe truth over religion. So yeah death in my eyes is the transformation into not existing. That is the thought that i think about every day of my life, that one day i will not be myself the person i love the most (myself) and that i will be nothing. I find this the hardest thing in life, to accept that nothingness that awaits us all. If you hated life, than nothingness would be heaven. But for most the people who love life, nothingness is hell/limbo. I guess what i need is help on how to stop thinking about death, and to just get it off my mind, because at the same time as it fascinates me, it depresses me just as much .
I'm not religious either, and yes - dying sucks. The thought that you will cease to exist is very depressing. I have the same fear, except I don't obsess over it day after day. When you're dead, you will not experience 'not being' for the rest of eternity. It will not be torture for the rest of eternity. That is hell and something we do not believe in. You will be alive until you are not. So try not to think about the end and enjoy life while you have it.
Wow, I love myself too. I have the biggest head out of anyone, believe me. My best mate Helen came to stay for two weeks, and we shared a room. She then revealed to me that I often say 'I'm a sexy beast' in my sleep.... and then she revealed it to everyone I know....lol. Man, that day was hilarious XD. The thing is... I'm not bothered that everyone knows I call myself a sexy beast in my sleep. I AM a sexy beast. It's a fact. As for dying? Funnily enough, I'm not scared of that. When my time comes, it'll come, and my life would have served a purpose; even if it was just to influence another. Everything happens for a reason, man. much love, Emelia
Well i don't really obsess about it every day, it's just that the thought hits me at least once a day. It's always right in the back of my mind though i cannot get rid of the thought. And i know that when i die i will not experience "not being" for eternity, because you cannot experience anything when you don't exist. So i know it won't torture me for all of eternity, and i can't be sad when i'm nothing. But still just thinking about it all when i'm alive, knowing that after it happens just knowing now that i won't even know that i won't exist, compared to how lucky i know i am right now, just sucks so bad. It sucks that i will remember nothing from this life, so basically everything is pointless. That is everything is pointless AFTER my life happens. My life is everything that will ever matter to me, and once it's done nothing matters. Thats the kinda stuff that flows through my mind alot. I do think there is a possibility of reincarnation, but the way i see it, it is extremely unlikely. And if you don't remember your last life, than it won't matter nearly as much anyways. So what i am wondering is what is the point of life, if when you're dead you don't even know you lived? Idk the universe is kinda fucked imo. But I know that people have to die to exchange for new souls that are being born for thier turn to experience life. And emelia, i talk in my sleep alot too my friend heard me saying "lets go to the store" while i was asleep and also "pass it to the left " lol i thought the sexy beast thing was funny!
