I hate having to pretend to like people.

I'm so socially retarded it's anyone's guess how I have friends, let alone one who has sex with out being a needy slapper with a fetish for 'bad boys'.

I can co-exist with people very well. I'm a great manipulative diplomat. However, when they breach my 'rules' I don't know what to do. I don't know how to be polite or banter outside my comfort zone, which is limited to say the least.

So tonight my girlfriend has got her best friend round, whom I hate. I guess that's not saying much, but I hate her more than you think I hated her before. She's acts oblivious to how much I hate her. She's an obese, sweaty slab of FUCK OFF.

Anyway, to cut it down a bit, one thing I really can't handle is unwanted attention from women (I'm not being arrogant and spare me the 'poor you' crap). ESPECIALLY UGLY ONES. I squirm at the thought of it all.

Anyway, fatty wants to flirt again. I'm doing as I'm told, I'm not saying anything. She'll be gone in just 3 more minutes. One word slipped out. No set up, no follow up either.

'Sideburns'.

I'm back at my parents house now.

 

well i neither like nor dislike. i prefer not to be the cause of anyone having to feel unhappy, but i am not unfamiliar with the tyranny we all live under, all but requiring almost everyone to kiss some kind of ass just to survive.

and i'm also not at all unfamiliar with how easily we could live in a world that was elsewise, if people didn't put trying to impress each other ahead of the kind of world we all end up having to live in as a resault.

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Pretending in general may be a little different than what you describe here. Now I see why you hate this.

 

You know the sad shit is, this aint the first time nor will it be the last time.

One time I was at my friends wedding and there's another fat person who I don't like (nor did I know before hand) and she kept trying to flirt with me, and later on, I forget how and why, but I blurted out 'I wonder what the tattoo artist thinks when he has to pierce naval like that..'

 

It's kinda mean... but at the same time it's better then pretending. Society has all these rules for how people should act towards one another... personally I feel uncomfortable being nice to people I really don't like.

This is why I love the internet and the forums. You can say just about anything and if someone has a problem, you can simply block them from your "life".