Ive been in the process, for about the last year in visualizing the girl of my dreams. Ive talked with a certain someone on here about her before but i wanted to post again. I feel like something is blocking this from happening. I know its deeply rooted in my subconcious and there is just something there, some sort of mental construct blocking this manifestation. i wont get too into how strongly i feel about her but i can tell you that it feels like i already know her. its become so clear to me but i still havent met her. Ive been meditating on her for a long time (by meditating i mean visualizing, devoting focused thought, not real meditation) and shes almost become apart of me that just hasnt manifested yet. i feel like there is something stopping it from happening. ive read stories of people who affirm their love and meditate and visualize what they want and within weeks its there, but for me this seems to be an ongoing process with lots of deep personal questions such as: "do i really want this" "am i ready" "is this right" is it these questions that stops it from happening? am i continuing the process by affirming these thoughts? sometimes i feel like by me thinking about her that is what cancels out the manifestation. im constantly (really constantly) thinking about her, visualizing her next to me, as if i already had her with me. Am i acting like shes too much of a prize?? too many questions that are hard to answer... i feel like i am breaking the law of allowing this to happen. i believe, sure, but am i not allowing it to happen? i dont know and im getting confused.... its getting hard for me to distinguish if i went about this the right way. when i say i feel like i already know her its because ive been through enough relationships personally to know what kind of woman i really want, who would be best for me...i dont care enought o waste time with other girls...but then again..should i? i dont know, im confused. ive built this up so much im not sure if i can get myself down... im also at a point in my life where im coming into a spiritual crises/awakening. its gotten time for me to buckle down and get my mind together, to focus my body...i havent been focusing enough on meditation and yoga and im still caught up in my addictions...sometimes i feel like its these things i need to take care of before i meet her...or is that just a thought that is also blocking this from happening...i dont know... if anyone can grant me some good spiritual advice, ill gladly take it into consideration.... peace lovers!
Mac, one thing is for sure: You're getting to know yourself very well. I'm not sure, but here is a thought for your consideration. I frequently find that what I'm hoping for doesn't materialize when I'm constantly thinking about it--it materializes after I've spent time visualizing, done my due diligence--and then put it out of my mind and forgotten about it. Very often I'll get what I was visualizing, and my thought will be, "Oh, yeah! This is what I was trying to get!" And it's like a surprise. Don't know if this will help...
you won't find the "someone" of your dreams by manifesting her!! it will happen when you least expect it, and what you thought you wanted, was actually way from what she is.
youre all right, but i was kind of looking for a way to allow myself to allow, you know? i realize putting too much energy into it will sink it, but i still feel like im not allowing it...maybe i need to just forget about the idea all together...
Reading your last post gave me another thought: Filling your mind with The Girl at all times might be crowding out thoughts from the universe that are designed to lead you to her...yeah, seems like putting it out of your mind might be good--and then see what strikes your fancy, no matter how odd, and just do it--well, if it's legal, anyway...
