i had a crazy dream the other night. my heart was racing and i was crying, i didn't know exactly why. i ran upstairs to my room, and it was very dark. i felt a very strong feeling of hatred for myself. i just wanted to end it all. i grabbed a pistol from my closet. my hand was on the trigger and my head started to throb. my heart pounded even harder. just then my family went looking for me, and they found me still alive, with a gun pointed to my head. out of everyone, nobody was convincing enough. there was no reason, no matter what they tried to tell me, for me to stay alive. i pulled the trigger and euphoria surrounded my body. i finally felt free, and happy. then i woke up
and the saddest part is, i don't think i've ever had a dream that's portrayed exactly what i feel in front of me as well as this one did. i truly don't feel like myself anymore.
The darkness portends a depressing period coming in your life. Crying says that it will end up happily. Remember that!!! The gun probably portends a very big fight with someone. You may say something and completely destroy a friendship or relationship. Therefore learn to not speak, and when you speak think how your words affect others. You may therefore end up "killing" the insensitive side of your personality. btw, I am voluntarily doing the same, speaking the barest of minimum. I shall be going into silence December 2 to Decmeber 19.
