Lets all list the good things in our life right now, to remind us to stay happy. Then maybe some negatives, to get out the anger RAR! ++++ My new adopted cat, Franklin 4 1/2 years old, sweetheart My Mastiffs back home Candy corn from the dollar store Caramels from the dollar store Massage from bf clean room cornbread liquor next to me hot showers ------ annoying roomates! grrrr laundry
I think it's just one of those times that when things are going good some shit has to fall apart to make the REALLY good stuff even out. I'm sure they will, it just sucks going through the crappy parts of life.
It is getting close to that time of the year. It seems like every year when it gets close to the end shit seems to fall apart. What is that all about?? *sigh* I guess the most we can all do it try and hold it together without going on a murderous rampage.
Well, seeing as my week's completely blown ass and doesn't look too much brighter for the next while, I really can't contribute to positive vibes.
Hmmm positives: I'm finally buckling down and finishing school I've met someone and am in that weird but happy phase I'm going to finally meet my jackass best friend in person Jess is going to have a beautiful baby - whose pictures I will ooh and ahhh over without having to worry about spit up and helping change diapers. :tongue: My dog, who is my baby, is healthy I'm finally starting to feel comfortable with myself again My favorite season is here and the list could go on But the negatives: I'm still lazy I gained weight and want to scream Umm I don't get to see my friends as much as I would like I miss sitting in the gazebo hanging out and SMOKING jeez I want a cigarette right now. I still can't find a job.....and found out that my school will make you quit your job when tossing.......so I need to find one quick and then lie and say I quit. haha Oh and I have so much shit due and I'm not finished with Adam's drawings GRRRR
the major tv station wants to do a show on my paranormal group for a halloween special. i have a great husband and beautiful sweet smart son and a great fun stepdaughter I finally am an aunt bubble baths in my garden tub the cool crisp air brushing my hair reminding me that autumn is near my child when i make him laugh the smell of my grandmas house
I'm lucky that: I'm in school I'm making money (not a lot) I'm marrying an amazing man I have a good relationship with both of my parents I'm getting my apartment back I'm writing again I have a regular shit schedule (hey, it's a big deal to me since I've been sick for 5 years-haha) I'm getting better everyday and I no longer have to go for blood thickening shots or blood transfusions! I have great friends I have clear goals in mind for my life I'm unlucky: My niece moved back to NY with her mother I have allergies as bad as I do The doctors still aren't sure if I'm going to be able to have kids My mother is an alcoholic and is always depressed I don't have a better relationship with my brother (it's not that it's BAD, it's just that we're distant) I feel like I'm not doing good enough in school (I'm not doing bad, I'm just paranoid) I am way to anxious to get my life going and to get my MFA I'm exhausted all the time My boss treats me like shit That's all I can think of right now... haha
Awww Ramona! Think of the little things! What's made you smile in the past few days? There's gotta be something!
Heh, well, we're having a fence raising tonight. Quite similar to a barn raising, only it's a fence and we're not Amish, and there's going to be lots of booze. I guess that's good, even though I don't know if I'll drink, lol. Plus, I'm formulating a plan to call into work in the morning, and I have a perfect excuse. I'm happy about that, lol.
See, it's not all that bad. Possitive junk in my life: * In all, my mates and I have taken over 100 photo's in about two days and had alot of fun taking them. I found a few I liked and updated my gallery (Which made me happy) * The Sideshow is on chanel 7 atta mo. (Stars TriPod and the Umbilical Brothers... Pure genious!) * A drunk mate of mine (After seeing me give my dogs peanut butter) just put peanut butter on a battery and is trying to get our dog's to lick it. I know it's kinda mean but so I'm laughing so hard. * I found $1 on the laundy sink. * I slept in till 2pm today. * The above mentioned drunk mate is now trying to dye our cat purple.
staying happy is a self deceptive effort and a wasted one. staying calmly detatched without obsessing on whether or to what degree we are or not is a greater real happiness in a longer term sense. my deffinician of maturity is understanding what i mean by that. which is not to say, it isn't a vital priority, the utmost vital priority, to avoid creating the incentives for creating the conditions that cause unhappiness in the first place. i think that really needs to be a given. however much it isn't even thought about with so much focus on what others think of us, which incidentally, prioritising instead, the kind of world we all have to live in, is what media, economic, and political interests, coined the term hippie to discredit in the first place. little things in my life, small victories that have given me newly good feelings in the last few days include having figured out how to use animation boning and making the keyfraime animation work in blender. i think that was the biggest thing for me lately. other things i'm thankful for is having something like that. and this thing to run it on. and a place not to get in trouble to live. and the rest of the good things that go with that. =^^= .../\...
I am happy about: Living on an island Having the most amazing job of my life Listening to the waves crash on shore A roof over my head Having food in my belly Access to the internet The ability to call my friends and family when I want to My amazing friends The warm weather (even though people say this is COLD weather) Having the day off today The beer in the fridge I'm getting my passport in about three weeks I'm not so happy about Not being able to find my ATM card My room being a mess (which is why I probably cannot find my ATM card) Not getting good snail mail every once in awhile Most of my friends around here are gone for the weekend Waking up early on my day off...
I am really happy that: I am a teacher 90% of my students are great I am really unhappy(distessed even) that: I had to tell some 13 and 14 year-olds who I really love, that they failed their exams on Thursday.
i AM thankful for my imagination, and never having been or alowing myself to be, coerced into repressing it. that's probably one of, if not the, most valuable nonmaterial possession i can think of. plus the curiousity that has driven me to learn a variety of ways in which to express it. (i'd still be happier, AND more useful, with more of the tools and materials with which to do so, however. but not by compromising my consciounse to be in a better possition to aquire them.) =^^= .../\...
