High times in plastic suburbia.

I gotta tell you man, I was high today and I was playing with my guitar and just getting some awesome sounds out of it, working with technique and tone. I was really playing around in a more experimental way than I used tro. I'm really loving how free and creative I've gotten recently, and I look back at my attempts just a few weeks ago as pretty amateurish.

The mother bummer in this whole thing is how afraid society's become of substances that could theoretically, with controlled use, heal psychological damage and illnesses and correct a multitude of psychosomatic physical ailments.

I say fuck it, pschedelics are clearly the real spaceship off of this planet, and onto a new earth of human potential. I've experienced enough to know that I personally have the resourcefulness to really go somewhere with this.

You just need to be willing to have that freedom. The problem is, alot of people are afraid to be free. It's hard to accept but it's true.

But me, I relish it, can't get enough. All I've ever wanted was to be free. I hated school growing up. I hated being in a classroom unless I was drawing monsters and stuff. It felt like, who gives a shit about this, I want to go outside and watch bugs, all the time. I never cared much for etiquette either, or in wearing certain logos to impress people. My thoughts were, if you're kind and toy project good vibes (intuitively, I knew, even if I didn't understand). I don't care how you eat, with your hands or a fork or if you sweatpants or the strangest, goofiest costumes. This society is stuck up on bullshit nonsense and it's disturbing when you think about it objextively. We're worried about our kids, watching sex on TV and acting and looking "acceptable" while war and violence and other really negative stuff clouds the airwaves. You don't even have to go into the spirituallity of the experience, just give it the cold science washover. We're stressing ourselves out and creating the diseases that ravage us.

I say fuck it man, I wanna go live in a commune or something or just move to where there's more people like me and just become this really badass musician and writer. I'm sick of having these expectations hung on me that I should spend my time working to afford all this material shit I don't really need. Give me imagination and the medium to exercise it, and I got all the fun in the world. Well, that and give me other people's stuff to dig too, and others to say "hey that's really cool".

So I do love everyone, I'm not antisocial. It's just that the vast majority of the population I've personally met piss me off. It's always bills, debt, money spent, and then wallowing in all the stress and hassle of paying it off. These people are so afraid of true freedom that they work themselves to death so that there's no time to imagine it. I'm having a real hard time relating to these people, their values, and the way they spend their time. It's like, instead of just exclusively checking out other peoples stuff, work on your own! Even if it sucks, you gotta start somewhere.

And you know, I understands it's an insidious system hellbent on viciously keep everyone tied up, but I can't help but blame the complacency of the masses. I hope more people truly are waking up, and deep down I know we're headed towards brightness, but it's tough to be at such odds with the value systems around me. The chain of corporate materialism is crushing the windpipe of this country. And we're meant to be happy here!

Expand yourself, do good for the universe, and it pays you back. Trust in yourself, and be kind to others.

 

I really agree with alot of what your saying man.
During some of my latter trips, ive never really come back down to what i used to consider sobriety. I just realized in my previous sober state i was entirely desensitized to nearly everything, so much that it felt like a twisted mind view. Looking back I think life is really trippy, in the largest sense of that word. Life is so damn trippy, but growing up in the middle I never realized it.

Because of the psychedelics i took, i will never look at stuff like i did back in my previous sober states i remember. Alot of my view does fit with what your saying, however it goes much deeper too. So i can relate alot to what you say.

 

altho i dont agree with everything i gotta say i wish more people thought like you. keep livin life in peace

 

Society has gotten so far away from being humans, everything is so unconnected these days, all this technology and wealth. We spit on nature, without nature there would not be much. I just wish people understood more, and forget about materialism, wealth etc.

One of the things I hate most about some people are their arrogance about psychedelics, they just dont understand. We need to start putting LSD in the water supply


...just kidding

 

The thing is, we don't know what exactly that would do. Way I see it man, everything is just fine the way it is. I wouldn't change a thing and I absolutely mean that with all the conviction in my soul. I wouldn't fuck with this universe and the delicate balance. Everyone can have their good times, and I'll have mine. All I need is what's with me at all times, my immortal soul. Even death does not frighten me, because I have seen beyond and it is not scary.

People can live in their own trips, and I'll live in mine. We're all beautiful and equal and we find a way to get by. If you don't, well one day you'll die and come back. So do your best, and try to love.

 

If you're at all talking about the routine of a common, "successful", and stereotypical life, then I whole heartedly agree. Life from the big picture seems like this to me, you go to school, pass, go to college, pass, get your 'career', hopefully it pays well, bla bla bla, die. I don't know. Then when you don't you're automatically a loser who will be working in a cubicle living from paycheck to paycheck trying to rid of some debt or bills you will probably have.

Just seems kind of bla to me, what do we actually achieve in ourselves? I'm a little bit more negative than you are (well you don't really seem negative, but point stands I am). See, achieving things in life seem absolutely useless to me when we die anyway. Death really isn't my queue either to try and make the best of my life anyway while I have it (as may would be in a more optimistic sense). As far as I know, my life could end any minute, this country I live in could screw up any minute. It just seems like such a waste building on what just goes away and dies with time. But don't get me wrong, I like doing what I can to make my friends happy.

I'm still in school, I see what you mean. But idk, whether you're wearing what everybody else is wearing or not, people can be pretty real. The only thing that kind of annoys me is people purposely trying to attract attention by what they wear. Take for example kids who cover themselves with black and make up for example. Not calling them goths, that'd be a bit of stereotyping for referring to them dress standards as that sub culture.

But yeah, I mean and even if - then, he/she could still be a pretty chill person - So I give them that much. Then I go to talk to them (perhaps on accident or run in), he/she IS completely obnoxious and seemingly condescends on you since they have in their own mind that they are some how smarter and beyond everyone else, maybe - but with an attitude like that I wouldn't think there was anything in that brain of theres too special. But that's only based on a few kids I ran into like that.

Though I can see how people can act like that at times, lots of kids, people, whatever, just seem to subject to fall into the bullshit presented around them (like how you describe in your initial post).

Ever read about nihilism and solipsism? Pretty interesting read on wikipedia.

Anyway peace man.