any insight would be great... dream started off in an acreage i used to live in, though it looked like it was in the middle of major renovations. floors torn up, furniture all gone, etc. me and a neighbour from that area were in the living room when these black shiny beetles started coming out of a hole/ddrain in the floor. not so bad at first, wed squish a couple and this dude i know (mothers friend) was supposed to come by with some insecticide. me and the neighbour ended up in another room and the bugs were getting worse and worse, we were stompin on em and, well, i half woke up, rolled over, fell asleep again in the continuation of the dream, i was still in the torn up house but all the beetles were gone. i had a child who id just given birth too (no recollection of the birthing process though) who looked a bit like a family friends child albeit smaller as their kid is like 8 months old now. anywho, same pudgy face thats heavy on the baby fat. i had to ask my mom how to breast feed and wrap the baby in a blanket, did both of those complete with weird throbbing sensation in my breast upon breastfeeding (well, sensation in the dream). i couldnt name my baby yet in the dream because my bf wasnt there, he was on a field trip with a high school (well, it was a high school but had the name of one of our elementary schools, and hes in university). i had to call my grandma and tell her and i planned on calling my bfs family since no one knew that i was pregnant towards the end, there was another woman who had a child up on the second floor of the old house, i had to go up there and she refused to take care of her child, refused to feed him or anything. kept shrieking "i told you, i warned you" and stuff like that, so i had to tak eher kid (my mom had mine at the time) and go back down to the porch where all the previous baby talk had taken place (though the calling of people was happening from the kitchen... oddly, the porch and kitchen were in great repair of this old acreage i used to live on) so... yeah. im only 21, no plans on having kids in the near future if ever (though my bf wants to) and the dream is kind of... weirding me out. if yall have any thoughts as to its interpretation, id love to hear them. thanks in advance!
Just to start off by saying that in order to provide an accurate interpretation it’s usually best to have a lot of background about the dreamer and recent events, but here are a few general ideas about the potential meaning of your dreams as based on some fairly consistent dream motifs. For example, a house often symbolizes the overall conscious personality of the dreamer, so apparently there may be some fairly extensive changes in your outlook that could be going on or which might be necessary in the near future. Old ways built up over the years could have to go. A part of this overhaul in your self-view likely has or could stir up a lot of “bugs”. Based on the analogy that such an invasion of bugs would be considered very unpleasant, that they probably feed on waste and transmit human diseases, that is to say, we really don’t like having them around at all, they could tend to represent repressed parts of your psyche. These can be a mix of disowned fantasies and memories, repulsive impulses and rejected feelings such as envy and sexuality etc. etc., but they can also be discarded positive things such as creativity. Just as an infestation of bugs can be extremely difficult if not impossible to eradicate if the infestation has gone too far, so too shadowy undeveloped parts of ourselves won’t “go away”. If ignored too much, they can appear as symptoms such as ongoing anxiety, sadness, outbursts of anger, boredom, listlessness, or in physical symptoms such as headaches or getting sick more often than usual etc. The second dream perhaps suggests that by facing and accepting the “bugs” somehow, it’s possible that a positive new outlook and approach to things (the baby) could appear on the scene or already has done so. You could try seeing what spontaneously comes to mind about your family friends in the idea of some strong trait of character, for example, that stands out clearly about them. This could provide a clue about what has or could begin to grow within you. It might be something radically different from how you usually think or behave (don’t know how to breastfeed). You might not be able to identify (name) this trait because your ability to look at things and differentiate among them might not be developed very well as yet (boyfriend not there, confusion about boyfriend’s school, suggestion of “elementary” school etc. since your boyfriend would tend to symbolize this ability to name and discriminate among facts etc.) The woman who rejects her baby could represent a certain tendency you might sometimes show in not nurturing important aspects of your personality. Being “higher up” on the second floor might point to thinking which could consist of negative thoughts that tend to shoot yourself down too often at times such as “You’re so dumb so why try that new job?”, “People hate you, they just pretend to be nice” etc. etc. A kitchen usually symbolizes a place of transformation, that is, on the analogy that food is cooked, transformed, and made edible/nourishing, so too certain feelings, insights and emotions can be “digested” to provide “nourishment” and understanding. The good condition of the kitchen suggests that you may be on a roll in being able to perhaps digest new opportunities for change. The porch might tend to symbolize the good state of your outer mask or persona that can hide any turmoil that could be going on inside. However as mentioned, without knowing anything about you, these ideas might not fit your personal situation very well if at all, but I hope the overall approach will be helpful in some way.
thank you very much i probably shouldve mentione din my original post that i dont like most children (save for a few family friends ones who are cute and quiet and such) and ive never planned on having them... though my bf wants some eventually and now an dthen i think about what theyd look like n such >.> but ontop of not liking most kids, i dont think id be a very good mother... mostly because i dislike most kids and dont have that maternal spark that some women do haha, porch = outer mask or persona that can hide any turmoil... ive worked customer service for over 6 years and dealt with depression on and off for far longer, im good and putting on the facade, yessirree bob. and the kitchen, well, i love kitchens, i love cooking so of course it was in good repair again, thanks for the interpretation/extrapolation of my weirdass subconscious
This probably reflects your mental state, probably belief system, that you will be going through a lot of changes, that you will be doing a mental house cleaning, dropping alway old beliefs, religious and secular. You're getting ready for a new way of life. The beetles may therefore represent old pains, old habits, problems from the past which will come back to haunt your new outlook on life. Babies usually denote new ideas, like business ventures, a new plan, etc.
