i have nothing good to think about...

...only bad

 

sometimes i spend the ENTIRE day thinking negatively


right now it has been three days since i thought positively REALLY

 

why?

 

why not?

 

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that answer is why you don't think of anything positive.

 

i duno i guess i have more or less successfully cut myself off from society too which is what i wanted but it's not always easy...not that i want to go back

 

Well what makes you happy?

 

it can be lonely at times

 

people


it's quite a conundrum



certain kinds of people

 

it's weird too cuz i'm fairly happy when i am not thinking aka semi-distracted by fun conversation with one of the few people i actually feel at home with



but when it ends i always start thinking again




i wish i was dumb

 

i do intermittingly make myself laugh though which keeps me going

 

I think I know what you mean. I think that on some level, a lot of people can relate to that. You probably just need to keep your mind more occupied, or find more conversation. Maybe you don't feel totally at ease with yourself, so you need somebody else to do it for you. At least you make yourself laugh, so that's positive, right? Maybe you could try to relax, and get comfortable with liking yourself - it'll probably keep the negative thoughts away for good, cause you'll have no reason to think them anymore

 

yes you do see... Think about people smiling, people laughing, you smiling and you laughing with them. I don't know does the trick for me...

I can't see someone smile and not smile back.

 

i have the same problem. i've been told that i overthink things. fuck.

 

i have been battling anxiety disorders and major depression for years and years, i am currently happy with my life, but as a person who has been to the very bottom, i can tell you my own experiences,

i was living in my own kick ass house with 2 really cool roomates, and we didnt worry about money or anything, one roomate was manager of burger king, and i walked across the street to mcdonalds and made my extra cash there. we had so much fun, the best parties, the coolest place to go, was our house. yet, i would feel sad, and i couldnt help it, and i never ever will forget, when one of my roomates went to me and said this " darlene, you have your own room, your own house, no money worries, and we have fun all the time,. you have it made. you need to appreciate what you have". never ever forgot that, cus thats one of my biggest problems, i wallow in the sadness, and shove the happiness away. now this was like 9 years ago. and i still remember it, because it was true. why the fuck was i always so sad? depression. thats why, its a problem. and if your dealing with it, you need to get help. im on prozac and kolonopin and im happy as hell. i just got the stomach flu hard core, and missed work, and its wed and im expected to make up 14 hours by the end of saturday. even THOUGH i had a fucking drs note. but. you know what???? i dont give a fuck!!! ill work it , what ever. life is way to short to wallow in sadness, when theres too many things that you should be enjoying but literally cant,. because your brain cannot produce or distribute the amount of seratonin that you need to feel good. thats why medicine works! or meditation, herbal medicine. whatever. you need to help yourself, not be sad, your wasting your years, dont waste as many as i did, you will regret it.