stuck in a loop

ya i do tha whole "quiet thing" alot and ya ppl always try to make sure im ok...sometimes i just get so dumbfounded that i can say something n my head and it will either make sense or be hillarious but i try to speak aloud and shit gets twisted and ppl r wonderin how much ive had... i do have a blast n my own mind tho and i guess thats all that matters.

 

during my last trip my "loop" as the state is being referred to, i dwelled over and over on death and what it is going to be like when i hit senile dementia....when i reach that state where I am just wasted matter with no emotions when i would welcome death with open arms. I got really sketched out, i was convinced that i only had until the age of 50 untill i slipped beneath the boarder of sanity because of my idiodic abuse of MDMA which has left my mind dulled. It wasnt i trip that was easily forgotten and after hundreds of trips ive sworn to never do acid again; or at least untill I get my life together. I really have no desire to do it again for at least a year. Everytime I trip nowadays i feel as if i gain wisdom on thoughts and ideas that shouldn't be brought to life untill I have enough experience in the world to handle the type of revelations; and i dont...I'm 19 and im not ready to know the shit that acid has showed me and im scared. I think about death daily now and theres no reason for it. Acid isnt recreational for me anymore

I used to get the "type" of loops your reffering to but that was druing my early trips when i enjoyed life alot more than i do now.

 

yah i've had that loop experience thing, it was pretty scary. i had taken 3 hits and i was in my room with this backpack full of weed and my bong and such. i was under the impression that it reeked of bud and i needed to do something with it. so i would sit there with this backpack in my hand trying to remember why it was there, it would come to me, then go away, over and over and over again. my brain really started hurting. so i found a piece of paper and i would try to write down what i wanted to do (which was hide my backpack somewhere so my parents wouldn't find it), but just as soon as pen would hit paper i would forget again and only get a fragment of what i was trying to get down before i lost it all again. now when i look at it it looks like some the dialogue of some insane man rambling. when i finnally got my whits about me (this was about a half hour+ later , but felt like several hours) i ended up just dumping the backpack in my drawer and telling myself not too worry about it. the rest of the trip was supperb tho! i'm thinking about doing it again 2night.

 

I am so glad you posted this, I took LSD a couple of months ago and wished I had read this first. I felt like I was stuck in a loop initially, I had to keep telling myself that I had actually knew other people outside the room etc, was not scary just odd. Then when the trip really hit things got really scary, I felt like I had gone inside myself, everything was earily dark and quiet and I heard a voice saying this is it, forever, I thought I was trapped, very scary!!!! Then coming back was so odd, I felt like I had to physically pull myself out! would have been comforting to have read this. I have taken acid before but had never felt this.

 

this isnt really beneficial to this thread. Though I have been in a thought loop my experience was explained earlier in the thread. I just want to say to psychmyke that, that fractal in your sig is fucking AMAZING

Thank you for your time