I'm pretty sure I have hppd (halucinogenic perception persisting disorder) which basically means that I see things move sometimes even though I'm not tripping/stoned. Now, recently after some intense meditation I've noticed that these experiences have gotten worse. I really enjoy mediation and I want to reach enlightenment and have for about a month stopped using drugs, but I fear that I may have to give up meditation as well if I want to be "normal" again. I see the hallucinations when I'm meditaing and for a while afterward. Is there anyone here who can give me some advice? I'm currently seeking a guru who could aide me in my quest for enlightenment, but I'm sort of against the notion of a guru. Maybe I should just give it a break for a while and see how it goes. Did I screw my chances of reaching enlightenment in this lifetime by taking drugs? BTW the awaking experience I mentioned happened before I developed hppd.
I am not sure what kind of drugs you were taking but it is possible when you meditate you awaken something inside of you, which then is coupled with whatever mind-expanding/psychedelic to cause you to have a sort of "flashback". Not sure just a shot in the dark
