last night i remember i had a buncha weird out of the normal dreams. I dont remember most of em but i just now remembered one of em (6 hours after waking up) and i had remembered another 1 of em right when i first woke up. These dreams musta been like 5-10 min each in dreamtime. I am reporting them because usually i don't have these kinda dreams but it was kinda interesting. Ok in the first one, i remember i was putting my cat in the microwave which i would never do in real life because i love most animals. But i was doing that i don't know why mabey i thought it would be funny (i have put my cat in my refrigerator in real life for a minute or so lol) So in the dream i remember i pressed the on button on the microwave and it was set for like a minute. But everything being all dreamy and shit i end up doing some other stuff (cant remember what) and then i forget about my cat in the microwave and suddenly the realization hits me, like WTF HAVE I DONE?? Just the most horrible feeling in the whole world that came across me feeling so guilty for the poor animal It was just so emotionally painful because i thought it was all real. I run over to the microwave and 30 seconds have gone by!! i open it up at exactly 30 sec and the cat seems to look a bit dry and brain fried. But not dead. So i felt a little bit better knowing i diddn't kill him. I think that dream ended there. My next dream that happened later on that night was pretty weird also. Me and like 3 or 4 other people (i don't know them in real life) were in a car at nighttime on an almost pitch black road with no streetlights or anything, i don't even know where we were supposed to be going. Anyway i was on the passenger seat and some lady was driving (in the dream it felt like i knew her very well). And there was 1 or 2 people in the backseat. So we are driving along at probably 30-35 mph and then i remember seeing the outline of a family of about 3 walking in the middle of the road and i had probly about 4 seconds or so to say something but for some reason i diddn't. Next thing i know as i keep watching the family i see the mom and someone else jump out of the way of our car, as the little 4 year old gets violently hit dead on with a THUD and we see the little girls body fly up onto the windshield, and fly over the top and then me and the lady driving the car very clearly see what has happened. Well when this was happening the lady driving the car was engaging in a conversation thoughout our car and when it happened she just paused for a sec and then continued the conversation, pretending that nothing happened. I diddn't say a word and the people in the back of the car didd'nt even know it happened. So we just kept driving with nobody saying anything about what happened. I had felt that same kind of really horrible feeling in this dream just like i did in the other one, just the worst feeling in the world thinking that you fucked over an innocent soul like that and thinking that its REAL.
Wow I know exactly how you feel. I had a dream loong ago where I beat the shit out of my 13 year old little sister and 6 year old brother. They got me really pissed somehow and I went all out on them. I saw them crying and whimpering on the ground and it was just an unbelievable rush of guilt "Why am I doing this?" and "What have I done?" I hated it, and those images have never left my head.
i've never understood what anyone means by IN the normal dreams. that IS a horrible feeling and occasionally things happen in my own dreams, inveriably the resault of something audible outside of them, where i have this same sort of loss of control of what i am able and unable to do. well here i go again, seeing parallels in our world situation. can't help that either but i do. it's just something. we can't always control everything. but sometimes we can chainge things, or rewind the tape and try it a little differently. i think there's a pretty obvious connection in kind, between the refrigerator incident in real life and the micro-wave one in the dream. and one thing, in either, there's never any guarantee of not being interupted and your attention or awairness being robbed from something it is dangerous for it to be. also i've had my own problems with indecisiveness in real life, but in my dream world, its turn around from waking life is for those anxieties to not be there the way they are when i'm awaike. =^^= .../\...
