hey, i really need to talk to someone. ive got bad paranoid and jealousy problems and its only since ive been with my fiance,weve been together a year now and the paranoia has got worse and i cant control it or brake the cycle if i do i can atleast do it for 1 day and then the next day is like mentalness like id be paranoid all day. i think he stares @ other women and finding them attracive more than me, i think he might hurt me like leave me although he said he would never do that,but ive heard that before with past relationship experiances and then theyve left me and i wasnt even paranoid then. i feel asthough i need to look through his phone and he does let me but idk i feel as if im being played the fool sometimes. ive tried talking to him about it but its fustrating me. im also seeing theropy but dont see them often enough. i feel asthough if we argue then he will talk bout me behind his back. i want to not throw accusations of when i think or say r u looking @ her(checking her out)as i say. ive always hate myself before i met him and he hasnt done anything to make me think the way i do. do you think its because of the way ive been treat in the past and now when i throw accusations and i feel quilty and really bad afterwards that ive treat him like i have,it makes me want to hate myself more and that is hard to stop doing. i dont even no how to break the cycle without being thrown back in my face and get even more paranoid. sorry its long i really need someone to talk to. thanks
I dont quite trust him either and you'd think we would have built more trust by now. Afterall, I have been sleeping with your boyfriend for 3 months now... Sorry, that was a bit mean. He probably does look at other women, do you want a gay man? Perhaps he should be a little more suave and not let you catch him but if he is a healthy guy, he is gonna look once in a while. You looking through his cell phone etc is bad. You aren't going anywhere with that kinda trust. Do you always feel this way with your boyfriends? What about your regular girlfriends? If you are normally unpossessive, then he is giving you cause to be a bitch and you should drop him. If you are just insecure, then you'd better back off before he leaves you in frustration. Is he cute? (Just in case you do drop him...)
paranoia sucks, but what i do when im like that is for evey time i have a paranoid thought, like, "hes probably talking to his ex right now" i think "and so what? he likes me more anyway, hed never ditch me for her" basically just try to counter every paranoid thought with one that defeats it, it works for me... and good luck
