Am I the only person ever in existance that pot has this effect on?

So I recently got stoned again, after not smoking it in 11 years. Well it took 4 hits & I purposely didn't hold it in. I almost held in the biggest hit. So glad I didn't. It was like instinct to hold it in. Like riding a bike...once ya learn how, ya never forget. But I didn't hold it in & I didn't pull a Bill Clinton, like I thought I would.
5 of us were playing Uno. I had already warned everyone that I did't know what was going to happen & I was not responsible for any of my actions. I announced that it was starting. My face was all tingly. I threw down my last uno card, that I could have won with, saying,"I quit!!" I also started crying. Then I was laughing, then crying. Not laughing til my eyes watered, but laughing and crying simultaneously. I was pissed off, that I got stoned after not being for 11 years. Everything on my entire body was tingly.
My kid wouldn't go to sleep, so I regretfully went in to lay down with him. I couldn't lay still very long cuz of my body tingling, so I did leg lifts. My kid was freaking out & I was pissed off. I tried puting my mind elsewhere & looked at the batman curtains. & I started thinking" I don't remember batman having wings." I told Shaun ( my kid) that I had to go to the bathroom. I couldn't stay in there any longer. I tiptoed out of the room, then when he started freaking out again, I took off running for the bathroom.
I hung out there, pacing back & forth, smoking, looking at my eyes, & using toothpaste to cure my cotton mouth. I didn't want Shaun to see me.
Eventually I snuck out of the bathroom & stood in the hallway. I saw Mel ( my friend) so I held my hands together like a gun. I went out & held the gun at her, laughing. I slowly moved to the kitchen & quickly ducked down, when I heard Shaun start wigging out again. I stayed there by the vent & was cold, so I covered it up, by sitting on it. Some good that did, but I did nothing about it.
I think I was quiet for the most part. All I mainly said was "fuck! shit! piss! damn it! fuck!" I was so pissed off. Oh once I asked mel if she had a blow up doll. I was thinking that it could lay with Shaun & he may be fine. She said I had no use for 1 of those & she knows I can't use 1. Then all I thought about then was sex & how I couldn't have it then cuz I was already mentally fucked.
I was pissed off badly. I layed there over the cold floor & did 400 crunches. Finally Shaun went to sleep. Mel & Toby (her boyfriend)were standing at the table in the kitchen. I went & stood in the middle of them. Out of nowhere I smacked Mel as hard as I could on the ass. Then I grabbed Toby's nipple as hard as I could, squeezing, pulling, & twisting it. I also kept poking mel & hitting Toby's arm. And I'd flap my hands a lot, as if I was trying to fly. Hell I was already high. I had idle hands. Couldn't control what they did. Just like in the movie. Except in that flick, he had idle hands when he didn't smoke it. Oh yea I was also on stakeout with their cat.
After they went to bed, the cat woke Shaun up. I wanted to take it by the tail, swing it around & around over my head & throw it against the wall. And I'm a cat person. I wanted to hit Shaun, but I stuck with cussing at him. Which I shouldn't have done, but it's far beter than hurting him. That shit made me so agressive, which hasn't happened before. I think I was pissed off, cuz I was stoned after not being stoned in over a decade. I also wondered how the hell I went to school like that. And wondering why I'm like the only person on the face of the earth, that pot has that kind of effect on. Not my thing at all, but I guess it's ok as long as I'm being supervised by friends who knows what it does to me. Apparently no kids or animals help too.

 

Holy shit, it sounds like you need to just chill the hell out. like a combination of you arent used to being stoned and having a strung out racy mind. Why dont you try it when you aren't worried about your kid or anything else. Just chill in a relaxed non bright room, drink a glass or two of wine, and then smoke again.

 

You cannot blame the pot for your own actions. Just because you igest a substance you cannot forget that you are responsiable for yourself, your kid, and your actions once you come down. Are you aggressive when you are sober?

 

my friend started laughing and crying when we did shrooms lol it was funny, but shit happens its cuz u havent done it in a while and ur not used to controlling ur mind like u used to when u went to school

 

Your saying that will happen to you every time you get high?!?

I agree with tresbizzare420- you cant blame ween for your unusual, and no offence retarded actions.
Part of it may have been having not smoked for 11 years then smoking 4 hits, probably should have only had 2.

 

yah basically

 

learn to laugh at what happened isntead of stressing about it. You can always explain yourself afterwards... also don't be so upset that you smoked weed for the first time in eleven years... You can stop again if you want its no big deal.

I freaked out on weed once. It was because I was already depressed and also i smoked way way too much hydro from a bong (a nick to the face after getting mad drunk on mixed alcohol) and held my breathe for like two minutes. Suddenly i thought my parents molested me when i was little and then i stole my sisters credit card and bought a 800 dollar plain ticket so i could run away... took forever to pay her back.

In my experience, if I'm anxious before smoking weed usually I have crazy panic attacks as soon as I get high... but thats just my body's method of releasing all that adrenaline that I built up with my thoughts.. once the freaking out is over you can enjoy your high. So dont be freaked out about the fact that you're freaking out.

In other words weed is helping you release all your adrenaline. Same thing that night terrors do.

 

Yeah thats true, the thing with anxiety and panic esp from smoking weed is that some of the normal effects can cause you to freak. For example your heartrate usually goes up. Well most people associate increased heartrate like that with impending danger or threat, and they misinterpret it as anxiety which turns into a full blown panic attack once you fixate on the symptoms.

The main thing you need to realize is that weed is less toxic than potatoes, and you can consciously reject anxious paranoid thoughts while high if you teach yourself. The way I always looked at it is that the herb is highlighting some preexisting process in my brain, basically telling me what I need to work on in my life, i.e. fix what is causing the anxiety. It can definitely be a tool.

 

Well pot has never been a great experience with me. And yes I do act retarded on it. I took no offence, cuz it's true. And I don't think it was the fact that I hadn't smoked it in 11 years, that made me be like that. That's why I quit it that long ago in the 1st place. And no I'm not an aggressive person at all, normally that is.
I was thinking about the whole situation with my kid and everything. So 2 nights later, I regretfully had a redo. But this time I did not feel agressive. Nor did I cry. But I still had idle hands. And yes I was still kinda retarded. And I still tingled all over. Every time I've ever smoked it, it has made me tingle everywhere. (that & be retarded) Sometimes even the day after I still feel a bit high, which from what everyone tells me, is really freaking wierd. And to whomever suggested that I drink wine as I smoke it....... not a good idea. For me anyway. I can not mix pot with any kind of liquor, even if it is just wine. Makes it even worse for me, if you can believe that. I guess pot's just not my thing, even though, it's all around me & everyone I know just about, smoke it. I have no problem at all with other people smoking it, but it doesn't do me well.

 

^Fair enough, I guess you are the only person which reacts to pot that way, If pots no your thing then thats cool, at least you tried it.

 

stay high!

 

Yea. My mind is open to try just about anything just once. But numerous times have informed me that pot's not my thing. I'm learning though that I'm not the only person that has bad effects from it though.

 

the very 1st time i smoked i had something like that happen but now i just eat alot and fall asleep,

 

you're fucking insane in the head

 

If you dance with Mary Jane and you cannot keep up, she will step on your toes.

To me it seems like you do not know how to control your mind. In order to control yourself perhaps you got to discover yourself. Once you know yourself you will be able to question yourself and make better decisions.

That seems to be your problem right there. Remember, your thoughts produce your actions. Examine your thoughts and examine what you are doing. How are you acting retarded? Once you determine what it is that you are doing that you describe as stupid, the first thing to begin doing is to avoid doing the same thing over again and expecting different results.

Unless you take the effort to make some change, nothing will change. If you know you are doing stupid things, one question which comes up will be how cool are you with the fact that you do stupid things?

There are many stupid things one can do. If one has to do something dumb, it’s better to screw up something insignificant as opposed to screw up something major which cannot be reversed.

Idle hands are only idle when they are not doing something productive. There are many productive things you could do however it is up to you to determine what is productive for you. Find something to do to keep your hands busy. If you cannot control your hands, you could always sit on them

If you determined pot is not your thing, try not smoking it for awhile and in the meantime try to get better control of your sober mind. Knowing how to maintain a sober mind is useful in trying to manage a stoned mind.

It does not seem to be uncommon for a person to not handle mixing substances well. Everyone has a different chemistry thus different substances will react differently when people mix them.

Know yourself. Also remember that your environment and your mood are important elements because any substance you may take will effect your thoughts and behavior. Do not take any mind altering substance when you feel bad because then there is a chance that you will feel worse.

Being able to laugh at the insignificant things perhaps makes one want to use less aggression. There are many fights, pick your fights carefully because there are too many small battles that are not worth fighting.
Stay strong. Look within yourself. Peace.

 

While I have not had your exact experiences I would say that ganja appears to have an equipotently variance for me, compared to the average mellow pot smoker. It seems that a moderate dose stimulates mild self-induced psychosis and a very slight amount of schizophrenic attributes.
At a moderate dose it appears that my thoughts become muddled, my limited access to emotional states would fluctuate without a conscious intent to do so, the hint of hearing 'voices' that were not my own and just a tad of paranoia. There are no specific issues or worries simply due the lack of a hinderance to the reasoning center (in other words no flipping out and calling 911 for help) and only enough degradation to the motor skills that I shouldn't be frolicking around heavy traffic or driving.

LSD, shrooms, X, ketamine, liquor, caffeine or anything else that I'm aware of egresses me from normal perception into the aforementioned alterations.

Please keep in mind that I am aware it is not the EVIL POT; it simply may be the specialized tool that brings out possible inner-latent issues that other introspective endeavours have failed to address or force surface into my thoughts.

That or.... the ganja has been dipped in PCP.

 

Thanks everyone for all your comments. I decided once again, I'm not gonnna do it. But perhaps, hotbox would be better for me.

And to rebelgray: I'm fucking insane in the head? What cuz pot ain't my thing? You're only 17. Grow up. People have different experiences & reactions to all kinds of things. And I found out that I'm not the only one that pot effects badly.

 

The weed experience can be pretty psychedelic, it can definitely remove some filters and give you a difference perspective of yourself. I think a lot of the bad experiences are based on that

 

Sometimes you learn the most from the worst experiences.

 

Certainly