This is just a bunch of new things for me. I'm new to forms, and I'm new to this. For the longest time I've been trying to figure things out about myself, trying to decide what I want. And I know this is probably going to sound completely mad, but I know if I don't post this now I'll never do it. I've only had one relationship, it lasted 5 years, with a guy. The thing is, ever since we've broken up, and even before then, I've always felt closer to my best friend. I've always dismissed it as just regular friendship, but the more I think about it the more I can't stop myself from asking what if? She's always been the one I go to with everything, and she's the only one who's stuck by me, even after high school as we've gone the first few years through college. So the problem is that I've never really liked a girl, but I'm pretty sure I'm in love with my best friend. I've questioned myself about it so many times, wondered if I'm bi so many times, but there's really no one to ask or talk to about it, because I can't really go up to her and say "Hey, I think I might love you." I mean, I've never really been attracted to another girl, maybe a couple times just looking but...it's completely different with her. I never really thought this would happen to me. I guess I just really could use some advice because my mind is going crazy trying to figure all of this out. I'm not sure if this has made sense to anyone, but I hope that it does. I also hope this post works...but I guess we'll see on bother accounts.
Ok.. well I'm not sure how much my advice will help you, but i think i'll give you my opinion anyways... Hope this deosnt sound too bad. Umm... I think that mostly when people first start to think that they're gay/bi, wheatever. the pereson that they mostly seem to have feelings for is their best friends or a friend close to them. seeing as though they're the person who seems to understand you, be there for you the most, whatev. Does your friend seem to have any kind of umm.. how do you say this.. Gay feelings.. like is she gay or bi or something like that ??? Maybe you should talk to her about this, you shouldnt tell her right away that you love her. just ask her about her sexual orentation, and other stuff like that. But to be sure that your bi and not just in love with her, see if you like other girls as well. like i think that because your last relationship went so bad, your feelings for her might not be feelings for her at all. maybe your just crushing on the person you think was the nicest to you. Er, umm... idk, this is all mixed up and might not be the answer you were looking for, but basically just talk to her about it. XXX Best of Luck and Take Care.
