Can anyone tell me why my gift didnt do what it normally does? Ive always been able to tell when someone dies ( I feel really sick and sometimes almost throw up). My grandad had been very ill for about 3weeks and seemed to be getting back to his normal self but died yesterday morning peacefully in his sleep. Normally id feel very sick about the time but I was very calm and peaceful when he passed away. Why didn't I get the normal feeling? I would have been more prepared when I got the call instead of complete shock. Now I feel really bad that I didnt see it coming, Im also worried now that at his funeral I may see him. I keep getting a vision that I can see him next to his coffin telling me to tell my nan that he is in peace now and not in anymore pain. Is it a message from him or is it a vision? Ive never had messages from spirits before only visions and thoughts. And also I keep getting the thought that im going to get call to say that my nan has joined him. I dont think I could take it if it happens. My gift seems to be going all over the place at the moment. Im getting things wrong or it doesnt happen. Im so confused and need help to get it back on track again. It had just started to get under control after admitting that I was gifted. Sleeping peacefully and seeing things more clearer now its all over the place. Any help??
Amber, as much as we might like them to be, psychic gifts are not assembly-line products that we can churn out without flaw, time after time. Your higher self is trying to get your attention. This is all about your spiritual journey, not about cranking out accurate predictions. Did I ever mention that you need to relax? Confusion is part of experience--for everyone. It's a part of experience you need to accept--even embrace. I'm so sorry about your grandad. But we knew he was on his way, didn't we? When you posted your note about your psychic impressions about your grandad several days ago, it was clear what was going to happen. Did you doubt? Dear Amber, you're a churning storm inside. God, I know you're in a tough place right now. But you need to find your peace. Let the pain and the stress and the need to be certain wash over you like the waves on the shore, leaving only soothing peace. Find your center, and relinquish your need to be in control. Tell your higher self, "I'm ready to listen to what you want me to hear now." And thank God that you're sleeping peacefully. You shouldn't need to be in pain to be psychic. Sending you cool breezes and warm, tropical currents.
Funny you should say about the waves in the sea, last night I dreamt about being on the beach,the waves on the shore, it was so calming and I felt so at ease. I didnt doubt that it would happen but just before he passed away he was back to his old self, so happy and cracking jokes. It seemed as thou he cuold have lasted longer. I have been trying to relax so that I can listen to whatever is being told to me but when I do its all getting mixed and im finding it hard to know what is a vision and what is just a normal dream or thought. I do realise that its becuse im all over the place at the moment. Maybe im just not cut out to have the gift I have or I should just make do with the little bits of messed up information I get and get on with things. I was hoping that I could use my gift to help others in the future, warn them of danger if need be like my daughter often does.
Amber, you have a profound gift. Really. And in all the years ahead in your life, I know you can help a lot of people. And from your experience you'll help your daughter adjust and live with her own gift. I guess you ARE "all over the place," as you put it. You want your knowledge/visions to be crystal clear at all times, you want it now, and when it all doesn't come together immediately, you start talking about not being cut out to have the gift. LOL You just need to slow down and be patient. When I say "relax," that's what I mean. Don't be in such a hurry, and don't be such a perfectionist. If you're confused, accept the uncertainty, set it aside until maybe clarity comes someday. And don't stop believing in yourself. A LOT of what I get in psychic impressions is messed-up information. Your visions seem to be exceptionally clear, but heavens! Don't be too surprised if sometimes they're not so clear. With a few notable exceptions early on and spread over years, I didn't start having profound and frequent psychic impressions until I was in my late 30's, and it wasn't until my late 40's that my life shifted suddenly and dramatically into the psychic realm on a permanent basis. And you're 24? Patience, dear. I think your life is going to be a fascinating journey. About your grandad--I've heard that often people who are dying have an interval of seeming lucid and healthy just before they pass on. It's wonderful he could be his old self and really enjoy some time at the end. Maybe you picked up some of my thoughts last night. Enjoy those waves. Peace and warmth to you.
Thank you, I will take in what you have said and try not to rush things so much I have alot of years ahead of me yet. Maybe once everything has calmed down in my life it will get back on track. Im off on holiday next week so maybe I can do plenty of chilling out and clear everything. I am a perfectionist and it is my down downfull, if it isnt perfect then I dont like it and I dont want it. Thank you again. Your advice is vfery helpful to me. Its nice to have someone else to talk to about it all. I do have my husband but he dont know how it feels to be gifted, and although he gives advice its nice to get it aswell from someone in the same boat
I'm so glad to be of some help. And I get something else out of our talks, too--it's good for me also to talk to people in the same boat, as you say. I take it your husband is supportive, then. That's a blessing. My wife was telling me I was crazy for a while...of course, I gave her reason to wish I were...but that's a long story... Sounds like you NEED a holiday. Hope you have a wonderful rest.
Is it possible that he was ready and went so quickly and peacefully that it didn't effect you? I usually get some kind of visit the night someone dies. (Even my friend in Texas's aunt sent me a dream the night she died about a med she'd been on. And I didn't even know she was dead until the next day.) But for me, if someone was read and passed easily and quickly, then I have no visit. It's a good thing, really!!
My husband is very supportive although at times he does think im bonkers but he doesnt say so, like yesterday in the grden he thought I was staring at the shed door but i was looking at "my cobwebs". He just aughed at me. At my grandads funeral I think he was there, I sensed he was walking up and down the church lookng at everyone, when we got to the wake alot of people commented on a breeze they felt go past them but none of the candles flickered like from a draft, and last night I think I had a message!!! I just thought suddenly out the blue to get some white roses, im nt sure if it was to buy them or plant a bush but after I had the thought it felt as though it ws from my grandad, if that makes sense?? We all gve him a white rose at the burial.
People often are at thier own funerals. I think it's kind of funny... I would be the type of person who would mess with everyone to freak them out, I think. lol. Yep, I bet that was a message from him that he is there with you. I'm sure he knows that you were wondering about why you never knew he was going to die.
Im sure he was there wth us all. Even though it was a funeral I felt so at ease, I didnt really cry as much as I had done at previous funerals even though I was close to my grandad. When I see "my cobwebs" I like to think that it is him, but occasionally I dont think they are because they dont feel like him. Ive often seen one floating about my husband which I think is female and a differant colour to the one I feel is my grandad. Id defenatly be at my own funeral and spook people. Especially my husband. lol.
Interesting that you see "cobwebs". And that they're different colors. I have never done that, but I do see these quick manifestations of people from time to time. And I very often feel a presence, hear a voice, or smell a scent (often smoke for some reason..) And I get mental images and sometimes names. If it's someone I knew in thier life, then I know it when they show up. If it isn't someone I know, I usually have the urge to get the message to the right person or people.
I think you need to validate yourself. You were right on the money - he was peaceful and you were right there with him. Beautiful! There is no death. Have a birthday party with him. It's so much fun.
You said "Normally id feel very sick about the time but I was very calm and peaceful when he passed away. Why didn't I get the normal feeling?" I don't think you want to box yourself in with that "normal feeling" definition about your gift. There is no "normal feeling". The only constant is CHANGE. What I meant by validate yourself is that it seems to me you were in sync with him - he was peaceful and you were peaceful. Had he been agitated, you probably would have picked up on that. The birthday party - death is really a letting go of the old life and the birth of a new life. I don't get behind all the gloom and doom that surrounds this transition. I prefer birthday parties - greeting the person on the other side, acknowledging their existence. Many people are surprised to see me there. They have separation definitions. I like to show them that it's just a shift in point of view - they are still the same being they have been forever. You will attract to you what you believe when you pass over so I like to remind entities about "Home"/Unconditional Love/Light. I've been doing Soul Retrievals for years. I've found entities hung up in cemetaries for 500 yrs. waiting for St. Peter. I've visited the Catholics Purgatory where all these entities are waiting for someone to tell them where to go. It's a lot of fun empowering beings with "guess what - the Universe is your playground - what do you want to do?" After going to the Light in 1989, I believe it is important to go Home first and then decide what you want to do. It's an energy vacation, a Love bath
