Since I've been about 15, I have mood swings and such. One part of the day I hate myself and the world, the next I'm angry and want to murder people, then later on I want to kill myself. Everytime I think about the past or my life I start breathing fast and get this real strong feeling of loathing. Sometimes it seems like everything is a dream or that everyone is aganist me. I don't know how much longer I can take this. I'm scared I'm gonna hurt someone or myself soon, I can't take this any longer. I feel theres nothign to live for and were all doomed. I usually only feel the worst when I'm alone, when I'm around others I either cover it up or dont feel it.
"Just because you’re paranoid, it doesn’t mean they’re not out to get you" ha, ha.. On a serious note: you should make these thoughts known to a psychotherapist or a psychiatrist for professional help. Hotwater
Maybe you should see somebody about it. Those appear to be pretty intense feelings. And why is it that you feel we're all doomed? And if we WERE all doomed, wouldn't it be a much more satisfying way to spend your time happy, rather than upset or paranoid? So what if this is all just your dream, make it a damn cool one!
