i am quite confused.

i am going to be 16 in 3 months.

and i have been with my amazing boyfriend for 2 years.

i love him dearly, and would never want anything bad to happen to our relationship. i would never break up with him, but i can't tell him that i think i might be bi. i can't tell anyone. i want to tell him i want to know what its like to kiss a girl, that i want to know what its like to touch another girl. i know for a fact that he would feel offended, less desirable to me and he would feel like it was threatening our relationship. i know this because i 'joked' around with him about it before.

my best friend is on to me, and i know that i can trust her with my secret, but when she brings it up i deny it. i know if she knew she wouldn't tell, but i don't want to take that chance.

i feel like i will never be able to tell anyone about how i feel, beacuse there are just some people who i just don't want to know.

i know if my mom knew, she'd put me in therapy to 'fix me'. once we watched some movie about these teenagers i guess whos parents put them in a camp to turn them straight, and she joked around with me saying shes glad that i wasn't gay.

all my friends make comments like 'thats gay' and 'how queer' and 'hes a faggot' and it doesn't offend me, but it makes me so sad and i want to tell them all so badly, but i can't.

i want to stay with my boyfriend. i want to be happy. i want to scream at the top of my lungs that i'm bisexual. but i want to be accepted and keep the life that i already had.

i'm extremely happy with my life, but theres still that part of me that i know i'm hiding. don't call me a loser, but i was tearing up as i was typing this.

how can i cope with this without telling everybody my secret?

 

Sweety, you're just a whore.
It's okay though, you can make alot of money selling your body, if you're not ferociously ugly.
There's no hope for you and you should kill your entire family.

 

well youre not going to be able ot keep the same life you had. things in life change, and unless you learnt o accept that, then you will lose a lot of chances in life.
thats rough that your parents seem to be uncool with it, but youll probably want to tell them one day anyway, when youre 18 or something.
as far as coming out to friends, id say that you shouldnt be too worried. you live in PA? where I live in PA, I never got ANY shit at all for being gay. everyones nice about it. everyone just exaggerates worries beforehand, and makes anthills into mountains. its really not that big of a deal that you are bi, and if your boyfriend feels threatened/wants to break up with you just because of the way you are, then youre definitley wasting your time with him! if hes really so amazing then he wont throw you away for being bi!
good luck, Iknow its hard, and its confusing realizing feeligns you have, but dont let convenience rule over the truth.

 

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