I'm 18, recently came out to my parents and a few friends (which exploding to everyone at my school, although i am now graduated) and everyone has taken it great, even my dad (which i hear is rare, and reasonably so) although he has his own doubts about me. oh well. anyways... since 6th grade Ive thought about nothing but men. and had started wondering if i was gay around high school, until it was bottled up so much i had to come out and get it off my chest. though suddenly i feel unattracted to men. but i have no attraction for women either (thankfully). i still think about men sexually, but how can a person be gay without thinking any guy is hot? have i come out for nothing...... Ive only really had one crush on a guy (and sexual thoughts about other men), and it was mostly his personality i liked him for. am i losing my sexuality? how can someone be gay and not be attracted to men...... i feel so lost. i feel like it might be because i don't feel attractive at all, or ive somehow desensitized myself to gay sex through masturbation, or its a kink. but i have no clue. any thoughts? is this a normal phase? im going insane, i cant think of anything else ><
i dunno. i think if i was to come out the same thing would happen. i have a habit of thinking about things too much. maybe thats what youa re doing? or now that its okay to be gay the excitement is gone. or you feel something is missing??
yeah your probably right, in fact i pretty much know your right heh which is what scares me, becuase i dont want my -thinking too much- to make me believe something that isnt true.... so its kinda hard to trust myself sumtimes. i just need to go into therapy lol thnx 4 ur reply
