Hey guys I haven't been on much lately, and have actually missed hipforums a lot! For the past week I've been feeling bad about a lot of things =[ There has been a little bit of friction between my dad and his side of the family. Some arguing, and it has made me sad and tense. Usually I'm a really calm person, but especially the past couple of days I have been jumping down everybody's throats for little things. Overreacting, like crazy, and then feeling really bad for being such a mean person =[ On Monday I was feeling really down in class and there was a boy sitting behind me, and not only was he listening and interrupting me when I was having a private conversation with my friend, but he was also cracking racist jokes. I told him to stop butting in, and that he wasn't funny, but he just continued. After calling me an emo when I said that I felt like I wasn't needed in the world, he started saying some rude things about gay people, and that was just taking it too far. I turned around and full yelled at him, telling him that saying things like that was mean, unfunny and that I wasn't going to ignore it. He then told me that that's how the world is, so I said that it was people like him that contribute to the discrimination and hate in this world, and that I hoped he was happy with the hate on earth. The whole class looked at me like I was a psycho and even my friend was telling me to calm down, and that it was ok, since no matter WHAT I said, he wouldn't understand. Then today I continued being extremely moody and yelling at everyone for any little comment, or if they were being an idiot in the art room (a few boys had come into the art room, where me and my friends are working on mural, and started mucking around and play fighting; using the hammers we had to smash tiles). By the end of the day everyone was more than a little scared of me, and I felt even more upset =[ I could have handled those situations better, but I just couldn't help it. Hopefully this is only going to last a short time, and will be over soon *sigh* I want to be calm and happy again... Peace love you guys Jane
Ahh doesnt sound very good.. but it think its good you yelled at that guy, i would have done that too actually. I hope he got the message. and if he doesnt, hes not worth it. He'll find out someday that hes wrong. This was just a start. I had that too sometimes, that i was very moody. What i did was going to my room, listening and dancing on music, make creative things, and enjoy life in my little hippy place. Sometimes in the middle of the night i had to cry for no reason. about lennon.. harrison.. that i was alone.. sometimes i listen to music in the middle of the night, and because its so beautiful i have to cry, and then i cry everything out that bothers me. Music helps me calming down, maybe it helps you too. I hope youll feel better in these days =] love you Jane peace! George
aww im so sorry for you bad week...*HUG* I hope things get better...school is rough...there are a lot of dumb people.
I'm sorry that you had such a crummy week. Actually, I kinda had a crummy week too. I wonder if there's some sort of astrological explanation for it. Good for you for yelling at that guy though, he had it coming to him and if he doesn't listen, then it's his loss. I hope things get better for you in the coming days and weeks. Peace and love.
thanks guys you're all very sweet good news - today was HEAPS better, had a good cry in the morning too, since my friend was having a shitty week too. She was having some issues with her family TOO! So we went to the toilets at the start of class and just cried for a few minutes. I felt better afterwards =] and i think she did too. bad news - I came to my locker before lunchtime and saw that someone had written EMO! in huge letters on my locker...in permanent marker =l *sigh* there were a few girls behind me (that had seen the writing before me) and they were waiting for my reaction. And those girls are actually bitches, so it might have even been ONE OF THEM that wrote it =[ But I completely stayed calm (YES I'm back to normal =D) and then walked away as if nothing had happened. I was a little upset tho. I get called emo a lot at school...just because I different to others...must make me an emo? The people at my school are stupid =[ I'm really sick of it. The worst thing for me is that people call me names when they DON'T EVEN KNOW ME! They've never even talked to me =[ Another reason for someone writing that could be because my lock has a skull on it...but if that's why someone wrote it, they're pretty stupid =l Oh and the dude I yelled at - well I went on msn after school and he was on and he asked me why i was 'sooo pissed at him' and I told him that 'not only was I in a bad mood, but he was being a dickhead' and he blocked me =O So when he tried to talk to me at school I ignored him completely. One other thing that happened yesterday - a new boy in yr 10 was walking up the stairs, and he tripped and fell. A few other boys (also yr 10s) stood around laughing at him and calling him a 'stupid faggot' (he's gay) I wasn't there, but if I was I would have told those boys what I thought of them D=< unfortunately I was getting a drink, and my friend told me what happened later When people discriminate others it makes me very upset =[ it's so mean and hateful...there's no use for it Tomorrow my friend will bring some nail polish remover and hopefully she'll get the writing off my locker...annoying *sigh* thanks again =] Peace LOVE JANE
LAST DAY OF SCHOOL TOMORROW! yay! we have two weeks holidays here =D haha and George knows how excited I am about my bday!!! lol just thought I'd add that! peace love Jane
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Theres something about me That I dont really care what people say i dont know i think i was just born that way its really really hard to get me angry.
