As the memories flash behind my lids memories of all the times like this where I was nothing but their punching bag not a living thing for i was their end to the life they sought the life they once had a life of happiness and love and my very exsistance has destroyed their chance for having that life again they merely see me as a way to take out their argessions and one slip out of place here is their hand again... SLAP!!!! I couldnt escape it my fragile body just sat there as they did what they willed telling me they were sorry and they loved me despite all the pain they brought, they're destroying my heart and destorting my perception of love making me think love is pain and the hatred that they felt for one another the ignorance made me this lonely soul searching for the love that i only saw in movies but everytime love just turns its back on me just like they had so many years ago they abandoned me to fend for myself dispite the lies they tell me to make themselves feel better i know the truth now here they are trying for another chance after im already grown and can fend for myself i dont need their protection after all these years where were they when i needed them? off on some high speed chase off smoking their precious drugs that obviously ment more then their daughter that is how how i became this tortured soul waiting for death since there is only a false perception of happiness and love held within my heart
wow good poem, this is really sad. you kind of hit a soft spot with me, just remember that although they didn't give you the love you deserved and couldn't teach you what it was supposed to be, they did teach you what it wasn't supposed to be
yea ur rite they did teach me that where am i supposed to learn love from? the one guy i thought i loved was a lier and a cheater who didnt care...where am i supposed to learn how its really supposed to be?
yeah...this hit a soft spot for me as well, i watched my dad die and because my mom lost her marbles after that i was a rather neglected intelligent child..sad times. but for real man who cares if some chode bag was a fucking liar. all men are at times. he will get his though, what goes around comes around. and plus there are a BILLION other fish in the sea that are hotter, nicer, and not a cheater. like me. i would cut my dick off if i cheated on my gf infact i would give her the knife and let her do it.
Well then Black, I'd then refer you to the love thread in the hippies section of the hip communitty portion, if there's more truth to this then meets the doubt. Excellent capture of the moment otherwise.
i know exactly what you mean...i hate parents like yours and mine why have kids if all youre going to do is take out your anger on them
I'm sorry you had to live through that, I feel you, and I can only imagine what kind of a life your parents had growing up to treat you that way. I grew up with learning love from the movies as well and by now I know it isn't real the way it's portrayed. Hang in there.
