It's been like 5 years (probably even more) since the last time I've really cried over anything. I did cry when I broke up with my girlfriend about a year ago, but that was only for maybe a few minutes then it stopped. Aside from breaking up with my girlfriend, there have been other things that I think SHOULD have made me cry, and times when I've wanted to for emotional release...but it's hard! This can't be healthy....
there has to be some kind of a release in people i think. we go through cycles like everything else, a cycle of tension and release. growing and dying, in and out, up and down, left and right... whatever you want to call it, everything is apart of it really i think. and crying is a very effective and healing release, imo. you can try to stay constantly in tune with yourself so tensions dont form, but that is pretty tricky and takes a lot of devotion i imagine. i was once like you, always wanting to cry but i could just never find it in me for some reason, but i felt like i needed to. and now tha i think about it, i dont know how i started crying but i just did. i think a lot of it had to do with caring, beginning to care about the world and things other than myself, and then you can bring yourself to it maybe. its such a good feeling really, the only gentle and true heart is a broken one. idk though, im sure if you really want to and you keep at it, itll come to you. and i have read its very healthy, releases certain hormones and endorphins and stuff....
Yea you should get counseling. It seems like you are supressing alot of things that could come out later or are already effecting you now. You probably have made other people cry bc of your inability to express your own emotions.
