Positive Energy and Words of Encouragement Wanted :)

As time ticks closer to my move to California, I become more and more nervous and more and more doubtful about my decision to take this job on Catalina Island.

I cried when I said goodbye to all the children and parents and the dance studio and as I was driving home from the food co-op today, I began to get teary-eyed thinking about leaving there also. Sure, I do a lot of complaining about that place, but when it comes down to it, I love the customers even as loyal, but as big of pain-in-the-asses as they are sometimes. I, more importantly, love the people I work with and it HURTS in the gut of my stomach to even just think about leaving them. Yes, I know that if they are any friends at all, we will stay in touch, but I know that it won't be the same - it never is.

I don't know if it's just that I'm scared, or nervous, or maybe all of these doubts really are justified, but it's becoming harder and harder to ignore all of these thoughts and feelings I'm having about leaving. I keep telling myself that I'll only be gone for a few months at a time and I am able to come back home during these breaks, but something just doesn't seem right about it. I can't put my finger on exactly what it is, but something is making me very apprehensive.

I have such strong connections with and a lot of love for so many people here in Michigan and it really makes me sad to think about leaving everyone behind. It also doesn't help that I've developed a strong connection with one specific person in my life and I have been thinking a lot lately about where it could go if I stayed and where it will go if/when I leave.

Deep down, I know I at least have to give it a shot out in California. I'm young with no children and no family of my own to keep me from doing the things I want to do in life. It really is an opportunity of a lifetime, but what about the passions in my life? There will be little to no opportunity for culture or dance on the island and it's what I often feel I live and breathe for. The last time I didn't have dance in my life, I became severely depressed and completely unhappy with my life. Could I live without it for a year?

So I face the quote from the Dalai Lama: "Take into account that great love and great achievement involve great risk." It is a great risk to leave, and it is also a great risk to stay...I often wonder where my path will take me.

Please send me positive energy to feel good about the decision I make. Words of encouragement are needed, wanted, and greatly appreciated.



I love you all.

 

Annie, as I look back at all the things that have happened to you since I've been here, if anybody is in need of a new life, if anyone is ready for major changes, if anyone deserves the end of the rainbow, and if anyone is strong enough to handle it...

if not you, then whom?

Doubt is normal. Just let your head listen to your heart and not the reverse. You're going to do GREAT!

 

go for it.. i cheer for you when i read you're doing good.. and when you're not doing good. like you said you have no real responciblities.. if i was you.. i'd do it.


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You are in a sense shedding your skin. A sense of mourning for the old is normal.
A new life will take time to fully reveal itself.
My best wishes go out to you!

 

*gasp!* You have a job on Catalina Island?! That is so cool! Why would dance be gone from your life now? The mainland has LOTS of of opportunities in performing arts.

I'm in California, and while I don't particularly love Southern California because of the pollution, there will be so much for you to do and see there.

It might be a bit of culture shock for you if you've never been here before. California is very diverse. We have all sorts of ethnicities here. It's fun to learn about the other cultures.

I haven't been to Catalina yet, but I was planning to take an online friend from Wales there. There's all sorts of things to do there. And if you like to travel, we have forests, beaches, mountains, and deserts.

Let me be the first to welcome you over here. I hope you'll be very happy with us.

 

i don't know what you're worried about. i grew up in the sierra mountains in northern california and live at the base of them still now. i've lived in nevada, utah, oregon and washington state, (several parts of both nevada and oregon, as well as of california, not counting texas and mississippi when i was in the air force) and i couldn't see where california was all that much different from any place else i've ever lived. just about everything there is somewhere else, there's someplace like in california. i'm not familiar with southern california though, nor with anything that's there now or what its like. mostly i grew up in smaller towns up in the woods in the hills and prefer them even to where i am now.

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DancerAnnie,

just know that the Love will come, and grow with you, and everything else will fall in place.

It's all in your own heart, and this you do not leave behind but walk into deeper and deeper.

And what looks so big now, maybe will look like a molehill after you took the step - knowing this step was not really too big for you, but just about right.

Blessings on your journey

Much love

 

Annie, I believe that what you are feeling right now is completely normal. Change, whether it be good or bad, isn't something that is easy all of the time. But think of this grand opportunity you've been given. Try it on, see how it fits. And, if it's not what you had hoped for, you can always come back, right?

I definitely think you should go for it, give it a shot. You don't want to look back later on with regret. Seize the moment!

{{{Hugs}}} sweetie...sending lots of positive vibes your way!

 

You will be fine. It's gonna be an awesome experience for you. I'm sending happy vibes to your way!!

I remember how I felt when I moved to England three years ago, leaving all my friends and family to Finland. I didn't know anyone in England and I was soooo crazy nervous. But it turned out to be awesome, I'm so glad I did it, I've met so many wonderful people and this feels like home now.

 

You will be fine. Anyone making a major change in life to the unknown has these fears, its normal. Best of luck to ya!

 

fly by the seat of your pants. just close your eyes and jump. don't think about it, just do it. good or bad, it'll be something.