Today was a waste. I hate Wednesdays anyway. A stupid day in the middle of the week just there to ad an extra "blah" to the week. Wednesdays are useless. I can't say I am depressed or even in a "bad mood", but I just feel unfulfilled -- unsatisfied with the day and the majority of this week. The feeling in me is hard to describe, but it makes me want to get into bed and pull the sheets up over my face and hope that I wake up in another place and time or if such a place doesn't exist-- to die in peace. Is the magic gone? Do our lives mean anything anymore? Corporate control, war, and greed all make me want to give up and puke until I die. I just want to slowly disintergrate into the ether...
sorry everyones wednesday sucked.. i had a fun wednesday.. babysitting 3 very happy little kids.. i was outside most the day, playing in the water.
I don't know why but today was one of the worst days ever, I still have a knot in my stomach. In contrast with Tuesday which was unusually good for me.... anyone else had a good Tuesday? I'll look it up to see what constellations afected these two days.
Its a week of seeking adventure, risk taking etc. This means to me, that if you do not fullfill that to some extend, you get frustrated. Yesterday I went on a long bike tour in strange areas of town, and I had a blast seeing new places, as if I was on the road again. Today I did not venture out but my turf. My female friend made dinner while I went to the store for bread and juices; pretty dull for a demanding gemini forecast. This page will give you an idea of this week. (for those with astrolgical curiosity)
mine was harmlessly uneventful. i may poke my nose out tommarow morning before it gets to hot, if it isn't already before the sun comes up or anything i want to do is open. that's why i do so much of my exploring on line, and creating off line on the computer, because i'm living where the weather doesn't entirely aggree with me. hot weather makes me feel helpless and damd near hopeless. which i realize is mostly in my head. but it's still a real downer for me. the damd hot weather that is. the wendsday is just fine. we COULD have six day weeks instead of seven, if we devided the year into 19 'months' of 19 days each. then each month would have three six day weeks with one extra day left over which would be feast day on the first day of the month. of course month comes from moon, and that means 28 days that devide into four 7 day weeks. now 13 28 day months in the year, oddly enough leaves the same number of intercalery days left over (4 days plus the odd hours and minuetes, 5 in leap years) as do 19 months of 19 days each. the latter kind of throws out syncing anything with the moon, but it would get rid of your woden's days for you. if you did the weeks like i mention. of course the moon DOESN'T sync with the sun, which is what gave calender makers such a bad time to begin with. central american civilizations decided the heck with either and built there's arround a bright light in the sky we now know to be the planet venus, thus their cycles of 226 or what ever it is. =^^= .../\...
I used to laugh at my colleagues at work about their conversations during lunches and breaks.. Ok, so for two days, all they could talk about was the weekend they'd just had.. Then by Thursday they'd be talking about what they were going to do this coming weekend.. The only day of rest (sometimes) from this tirade of utterly boring babble.. Was Wednesday!
