Right, this may take a while..but it goes like this - I met an English girl in September last year after she contacted my parents, and then me, about a room we had available in our house, as she needed somewhere to live for a year. She is in Australia on work placement. So she contacted me about the room but was a day late as we had just given it to someone. Anyway, we continued talking just over the net for a while once she was in Australia and a few days later we met up and started hanging out. We got on very well from the first time we started talking. She is a lovely girl and I now consider her a great friend. On one hand I would like to take things further with her but on the other hand I really value the friendship we have and don't want to risk losing that. It's a strange relationship really.. in that we are both very affectionate people and are always cuddling, massaging, holding hands, sleeping in the same bed, spooning etc.. there's just no sex.. and I think it could make things weird if there ever was. But she drives me crazy! I dont mean in a bad way.. I mean I'm so attracted to her. She's just an amazing person. She once said to me that she feels like she has known me for years and its strange how comfortable she feels around me. I feel the same way On friday night we had a party at our place with lots of cocktails. Everyone was really drunk. I was a mess and ended up naked and sick in my bathroom and this girl I've been talking about had to help me into the shower and really looked after me. Im very grateful for that. The next morning I woke up to the sound of her laughter coming from my housemates room and I knew straight away that they had slept together. At first I was angry and was telling myself I wasn't going to speak to her or my housemate again.. bla bla... I can't be angry at her though, I mean its not like I've been cheated. But it's a similar kind of feeling I guess. That morning she came into my room and just sat next to me with her head resting on my shoulder for a while and we didnt speak about it. It was sort of like everything was normal once I saw her. I kind of forgot about the anger that I was feeling. I just can't be angry at her and I dont think I have the right to be, even though she has told me I should be angry at her. Later yesterday and last night we talked about it just through text messages and she told me she is very sorry and totally regrets it and she was very drunk and that she was totally out of order to let it happen. The fact that my housemate was encouraging me to make a move on her just a couple of days before the party made me even more confused. I think I was more angry at him.. I will see her tomorrow and we'll talk some more about it all. Anyway I dont really know what the point of me writing all of this is. Im not really asking for any advice, I just needed to get that out there. Sorry for the essay.
if she apologized to YOU, then she obviously feels she has some sort of bond with you-more than friendship because you two are obviously beyond that. Just kiss her dude and let her know. I mean, you're already sleeping in the same bed and holding hands.
i once had a relationship that started out just like that, the longer you stay freinds with her the more scary the first kiss will be, it willl be like standing on the edge of a cliff but once you get past fear of losing the freindhsip that it will probably be really fun going all the way together
