i cant control myself when it comes to drinking and smoking or what have you. i dont know what to do. i cant help myself from lying and stealin from people i do and dont know. 've been going to AA and NA for like 2 years now and i have had multiple sponsors and have been in treatment programs and drug counslors but i still cant get it right.I just dont wan tto change who i am and how i think. i had 38 days clean until today and now im drunk. i fucking hate myself and i dont know what to do....
38 days of being sober pretty good if you ask me...dont feel too bad about it, just try to stay sober for a little long this time around.
I eat too much shit, so I can empathize, though the aforementioned shit probably does not parallel your shit. One thing I really wish I had right now... someone to love. That would help a great deal in quelling my overeating problem. I know it would. The desires you have may or may not be similar, but it doesn't matter. Introduce to your life something new and great. Allow a personal revolution to occur--so you can stop hating yourself. I hate myself a great deal, too. So much so it impedes my motivation and inhibits my success in matters academic and otherwise. Whatever your desire is, pursue it independent from alcohol and cigs.
Hey Ashbury! Do you really want to stop drinking? That is the most important thing! Nothing will work if you don't want to change. I have spent time with addicts and know that having someone around them - preferably someone who doesnt drink too much - really helps if they can talk to them! Take care! Love and peace
i dont hate myself or anything like that, im jsut pissed off because i can barely control it. and no, i dont think iwant to stop drinking, but iwant to want to stop drinnking.
http://www.hipforums.com/forums/showthread.php?p=3345949#post3345949 I have been battling my own addictions, and I made this thread a while back in hopes of getting and giving support. There are quite a few people that have posted there with their stories, and I think you might find it at least a little encouraging. I'll keep you in my prayers to my higher power. Sending you vibes of strength, serenity and sobriety. Much love to you. P.S. I just read that we're the same age. Are you still in school?
yeah i am, actually now im going to a recovery highschool where its just like 20 kids who are all in recovery. i just got put in there recently after gettin out of rehab.
Hey, i got a joke for you: How many shrinks does it take to change a lightbulb? one, but thats only if the light bulb wants to get changed
