200mg, 1.57x. Took three bong hits for me to burn most of it. That familiar, sinking, losing control feeling that I just can't seem to get used to came on about a minute afterwards. Feels like I'm being pulled away and asked to go to another place. Feels like people are there, but thankfully I never hear their voices. Got nervous again, an anxiety attack, and drank some cold water, which brought me down pretty fast. I may never understand Salvia. That sinking feeling.... It's beautiful, though, aside from my fear. Beautiful and strange. Water-like, the way it starts pulling at the scenery. It's like going to another place in a way, even though you're still in the same room. It's like, instead of being inside of the ride (life, reality), you find yourself standing on the threshold of the ride's door, slowly moving backwards. It's like you're moving backwards into an even bigger reality. You're being pulled backwards into something else. The colors, the oil-on-water play on the eye's canvas, the striking other-worldliness of it all. A part of me said I should never do it again, because that's all it's ever going to be. My greatest fear is going there and not coming back. But I've always come back.
You'll always come back... but I think you need to take a bigger hit of some stronger stuff and hold it in a little longer if you want to actually hop on that ride
Oh, I've already had quite a ride. My first time was with 20x and...it really hit me. I'm just trying really hard to acclimate myself to Salvia, trying to understand it better. Honestly, though, if I had some acid or shrooms or (best of all) some good herb, I don't think I'd even mess with Salvia very much. I'm only doing it because I need an escape and it's all I can find.
Yeah I hear ya. I've only really tripped once on salvia, and although it was an interesting experience, I decided not to do it again because I just don't see what good can come out of becoming a wall. I've seen people try to find the right dose, and it seems like it either doesn't do much or you become a wall, not too much middle ground... and i don't see the point in either of those really haha. Sorry I'm rambling, just my two cents, keep us posted as you keep experimenting and if you ever find that "just right" dose
I've yet to become a wall or a tree or anything like that. The main thing is I have to get used to little doses, learn how to trust it, and learn how to let go. There is a feeling about the beginning of a salvia trip that I always forget, but then always remember again when it's starting. It's very unique.
