My life sucks. Will it get better? Please analyse my chart! Thanks!

i used to be very shy as a child, but as soon as i warmed up to somebody i could relax and be myself, however when i hit my teens i got bullied and verbally abused frequently at the same time my parents were also going through a divorce, i've witnessed many violent physical fights between my parents and have had to separate the two of them so it was a terrible time for me. i began to withdraw and became very introverted and eventually became a recluse. i feel i have social anxiety, i have intense anxiety and i avoid social situations at all costs. whenever i'm in a social situation my heart pounds, i sweat, shake, i'm short of breath and my body also becomes stiff. i never go out and i drink a large amount of alcohol before i have to go out anywhere which involves social situations, such as college, which i know, is very bad but i can't help myself!

can someone please analyse my chart? will my life get better?

thanks in advance!

 

I can feel you're going through a really rough time.I'm not an astrologer but I looked up your chart and saw some "issues" that might cause some tension..first of all I see your moon resides in your 12th house,which means that you tend to shy away from social confrontation,that feelings are fragile and you're easily hurt.But hey,you're a leo,you can change that if you choose so,I can assure you
"Occasionally, it is important for your general health and well-being that you seek seclusion in order to renew your emotional strength."
As for this period of time,read this..it says about some neptune square mars influence:http://www.astro.com/cgi/atxgen.cgi?btyp=atx&lang=e&nhor=3&go.x=16&go.y=4&go=Go
I advice you to look for people who have similar views and interests as you for friends..this should bring great support.
Are you interested in spirituality?There's a certain mystical quality about your moon positionUsually when things go bad like this,it means there;s something we should do,but we're ignoring to do.Maybe you have to reevaluate your life priorities.I realize you're young and you want to have a peaceful life but sometimes these dificulties are great teachers,we might have chosen to live them so we can grow.
And please,don't abuse yourself with alcohol.Have faith that things will improve,I am sure they will