I'm sick and tired of always being the strong one. Why is it, that when I'm upset, I can talk about things and they get better, but when someone else is upset, they get up and walk away...run away from the situation...not even allowing for a chance for things to get better? I'm tired of making everyone else happy...and in the meantime, making myself unhappy. I'm tired of games people play. One moment saying one thing, and the next saying another. I'm tired of crying and being anxious. I wish I hadn't fallen in love with someone who sees me as nothing more than some other female friend in his life. I'm tired of feeling like I'm groveling at someone's feet, begging for them to love me. I shouldn't have to do that...they should want to love me on their own. I'm tired of being at this fork in the road, not knowing where to go next. I only have a short time to stop and rest before I must make a decision on which road to take. The road I choose will affect so many other people's roads...how can I choose when I know that someone will get hurt. I ache, I hurt... Please send positive vibes.
Aw, you seem like such a cool girl; hate to hear you're going through some shit. Sending lots of positive vibes your way, my friend.
have you told them how you feel to get some feedback? if not, ask them flat out, like, "i feel like i give everything to this relationship, to keep it up and together... nothing would please me more than to make it work out.. but i can't do it all myself and need to know what you want out of it and how you truly feel about me" if they say they feel the same, then ask why you don't see the signs or how have they shown/demonstrated this to you... but whatever you do, believe things will get better and in no way is life over.. it will either be what you want (things working out), or a new chapter beyond your expectations!!! good luck, +++ vibes!
Oh yes, everything has been set onto the table...but other situations have risen that make cutting ties very difficult for the both of us...which is something I feel I almost need to do to heal myself.
How long before the other situations calm down and make it easier to end things? I am sorry ): I have been in similar situations and it really hurts. I'm stepping into a sticky situation myself right now that I need to restrain myself but can't because I've secretley held a flame for this guy for two years. You are such a special girl. He has no idea what he is jepordizing.
i can't imagine a situation other than a pregnacy that would make it too difficult to do what's solely best for you as that's who you have to look out for, especially if no one else is helping out or has your back... go with your instincts, move on to other people, there are billions of people in the world, meet some more.. some special ones who'll appreciate you for you and what you have to offer, DON'T settle for less! g'luck.
