Tomorrow would be two months since I met Pauly. It was a friend's bday, we met he became by bodyguard from this guy that was stalking me at the bar and we just sat down and talked, so much. I gave him an e we tripped, it was comfortable and nice but I wasn't thinking of him at the moment... I was thinking of his friend, I even said to him I like your friend and then I regreted it because I felt he was into me, but I realized it just after I said it and I;ve had so much fun with him that felt wrong to tell him that. That was our first night together, night that turned into mid afternoon of just talking drinking beer, laughing. He gave a book of short stories and poems, cant remember the author at the moment and when I got home I read the first one and loved it. Next weekend we met again, we tripped, we danced, we laughed I ended up having sex with his friend. I know this doesnt sound like a love story, but his friend was an old crush, like those guys that you just want and gotta have, well he was one of those, so I wasn't really thinking of anything else or noticing everyone else. Next weekend I went to their city again with my brother, same as always just hanging out, drinking, smoking, dancing... the after parties at their house. I sneak with Pauly's friend, he falls asleep and when I get out of the room I see Pauly and was like ohh, and just sat next to him and talked and talked and we danced and we smoked and it was comfy and it was fun, and we kept on having those fun moments, I wrote him an email telling him that I loved him that he was like family to me, that he was my Crazy Cousin Pauly. Then he came over here and we had a house party at one of my friends house, the story kept repeating and I was always sitting on top on him and talking to him and hugging him, but none of this was in a sexual way, it was just natural. Until last week, he comes over again with another friend of his, they are staying at a hotel. I go to see him, and I find that friend2 is with a girl .. and Im like ohh what's this? But it doesnt bother me because I've been alone with Pauly before and everything's cool but we talk so much and laugh so much, and he's touching my thigh and I smile and Im standing between his legs while he's sitting down rolling a joint, and Im thinking why am I standing so close to him? but I never move, because it's comfy. So we leave the room to leave the couple alone and surprise we are alone in the other room, but its cool because its Crazy Cousin Pauly. But we're there and you know we've been there for two minutes and he leans forward to kiss me and I kiss him, and it like wao. Until that first kiss I never liked Pauly in that way or felt attracted to him .. or at least that's what I said to myself. SO we have this mind blowing sex in which he makes me feels so spoiled and pampered and like a Goddess, I spent the whole night saying I felt like Cleopatra, maybe the sex was so good due to experience, he's 39. But I've slept with older guys before and it might have been great but never felt like this, this was different. We would cuddle, we would laugh, we would tease each other, we would have sex again. He would beg me to stay and have a decadent day, I said no, I couldnt.. I wanted to. I needed to go home. The next day I wake up at 7am because I have class and you know before I get out of my bed I decided that I would go and visit Pauly. So about 8am I show up at his door without letting him know or anything.. I just go. He's happy I'm happy. We have sex, we smoke, we have sex. We go upstairs and smoke with Friend2, we go to the office, we go back to the room... we have sex, we eat, we drink beer, we smoke, we have sex. We couldnt keep away from each other. I mean he would go to roll a joing and I would be like "Pauly, please come back to bed" just because I wanted him to be next to me, not to do anything I just couldnt see him sitting on the other side of the room. We go out to dinner, We come back to the room, have sex. We talked about how much fun this has been and how comfy it felt Sepparation time, was always horrible. On Thursday night I go to this hotel room with a friend of mine we smoke and chill for awhile my friend leaves and you know we have sex, and he gets something to eat and I eat and I stay the night because my mom is out of town and never have I've been really able to sleep with a guy, like relaly fall asleep but I did without even noticing and the next day my wondering hand wakes him up and we have amazing wake up sex and he doesnt want me to go to work, he wants me to stay with him but I cant and he tells me how he watched me sleep and Im surprised that I fell asleep before him. Friday I come work and when I get out I go straight back to him and you know we have sex and we laughed and we listen to music.. our conversations were great. So like we've known each other since forever. We spent the whole time just chillin together barely getting out of bed, and we feed each other and we caress each other and he makes a toga for me.. lol and I make fun of his glow in the dark ass LOL he's all tanned except for his ass, and he speaks to me in Croatian and I melt and I teach him spanish and I speak a little french and he corrects me and we were just never bored and never I felt like I gotta go. On Sat morning we went to buy fruit and we can barely walk and are like ohh we need to go back to out little coccon amd then he left with friend2 and I've spent since then missing him soooooooo much. Its crazy. He called me on Sunday, I emailed on Tuesday, he emailed me back. But I just miss having our endless conversations and touching him and kissing him and the sex... a little obssesive?
Sounds like he may be falling in love with you, although it seems to me youre still infatuated with him and attracted to what he gives you emotionally because noone else has shown it so far. You also are drawn by the great sex...good chance hes been in love before, and hurt. I wouldnt tell him that you love him because youll rip his heart out the way it sounds so far. You seem a little detached from reality at this point which Im sure is confusing. I think you should either date him exclusively or keep it as friends. I wouldnt tell him you love him until you know you LOVE him. If you have to ask, then you arent in love, PERIOD. Im 28, been married for 10 years and I have come to realize that love grows over time and real love will bond a couple forever. My wife and I have had the best sex in our marriage and our lives in these more recent few years. I feel like more of a stud than ever knowing I can just whisper in my wifes ear about how badly I want her, and she can come without me even touching her. If you guys fall in love and build a relationship the sex you had so far will seem bland, trust me. No offense but sounds to me, like youre leading him on unintentionally. Its also a mistake to call him a silly harmless name like crazy cousin pauly. Once he catches the drift you think of him as a chum or buddy hes going to change drastically on you. Most guys dont spend time watching a girl sleep or thinking about them constantly and miss being with them and hearing thier voice. Id say youre lucky this guy is that into you. You need to dive in or back up before he gets led on and thing go the wrong direction. Feel free to pm if ya want with any other issues, would be happy to help in any way that I can.
actualy..aksledder.. this story hsa changed quite a bit..& it was hard to read.. for me, because well, me & autentique have fallen totaly in love..in the past 3 weeks, pauly has called her once just to come over..at the time wed already been in love & shed told him she really didnt love him & that yea sure come on over so she could say goodbye..he never called again, or came over..they had freindship, they had sex..maybe lil bit more who knows, but love? when she said bye, seems he didnt really care.. i cant always say loving hers always easy..especialy after reading this.. cause i know there will always be a pauly.. or another somebody.. just a phone call away..but the difference is now, before her attitude was always, well ok so i had sex with his freind, so what, i wasnt thinking of anythunbg just enjoying the momment..but now she thinks alot more about what she wants how she feels & how id feel as well.. reading this was dificult, because shes been so honnest with me i know exactly how she feels about him, nah, it wasnt love, probably not even close, but there was tenderness there which was something shed never experienced,,i dont think he treatted her with quite as much respect as she desserves, i'm not sure i have either in every situation..or she me entirely although we are learning constantly.. i have a lil weird feelings about pauly, cause all through the beginnings of our relationship there was always that wondering, is today the day he'lll call & it will all change....weeks went by, & hed completely leave her mind..& i'd screw up & say something like "i cant belive he still hasnt even called you" & id get her thinking about him again..& i had to deal with the fact that..if he called..if he came..theyd probably at least have sex..i knew in her heart she might not want to, but, in reality they possibly would,,when he did call...& she told him goodbye...i was so happy..& surprised..&.. he let her go with nothing more then a "your being silly we'll talk when i come see you" & no further contact to this day...i think hes so cocky he thinks he'll just call her up say hey i got a room come over & everything will just be all sex sex sex again..& maybe it would..i admit it scares me a lil.. i mean i'm so far away, we cant have sex till she comes here in may..but..at the same time, since the day we met, she's been turning down guys left & right, ppl shed usualy sleep with without a thought shed tell them sorry, i'm in love..i cant..shes never done that..not for pauly, not for anybody..& 1 by 1 i see them be like ..uhh..ok..thats fine..like it meant nothing more then that they'd hafta call the next number on theyre lists of possible rainy night sexual encounters.. maybe i'm not painting the prettiest picture here, but, let me try to clarify, all except 1 really were decent ppl..freindly & fun, but things never got real deep..with pauly yea shed had some feelings maybe, but probly was just the fact that he at least was the 1st to ever treat her tenderly & was..loving.. yea i guess that fits..or at least felt that way to her (i kno here i am telling you how she felt..but thats just how well we know eachother cause weve been so honnesst in all things) i said in the other thread, that i wanted to thank the ppl like pauly who touched her life & maybe pauly didnt love her or her him, but, he did get her to question love, & i dont know if we'd be together today if she hadnt been open to love,, still.. wasnt easy to read this..& wish shed just wake up so we could talk i miss her every minute.. now especialy..& i've spent hours just watching her sleep..&..watching her cry....&.. crying with her..&..so what if they hd alotta great sex.. ok it is lil uncinfy thinking about it..but... hell i want her constantly.. its understandable.. she puts out pherimones by the barrelfull,, u cant help it.. aksledder..this had all already slipped away into the past..& was almost forgotten.. but i guess since its never totaly forgotten, im glad u pulled it back up..just wish shed wake up now..lol really want to talk
Sorry bro, wasnt intenting to pull up old stuff. I stumbled upon the forum recently and didnt see a response so thought Id share, newbie mistkae, my bad. Glad to hear you guys are moving forward and she seems to be leveling out. Congrats...and dont let her see you worry about that other guy. Shell feel like you dont trust her and that could turn things bad quickly. Show her love her, show her you trust her, and the rest will fall into place man. Good luck bud
AKsledder you're a very wise man. he knows there's no reason to worry, loving him has never been a question but an action.
thereve been just lil sparks of worry but they faded very quickly.. like she said theres never been any doubt about our love its just what we do cause we gotta do it but i'd be happy to let this thread fade away & be forgotten still..lol http://www.hipforums.com/forums/showthread.php?t=227758 thats the new thread and theres no doubt in my mind or hers that true love is where we belong no doubt no questioning it just is what it is we arnt even the same people we were when this thread was started..
