A slight failure while processing the thoughts

Here it is, no great pretentions... this just ejaculated from my mind while I felt REALLY, REALLY, (really!), bored.


When I am thinking: ‘’What am I thinking about?’’
What am I really thinking about?
‘’Mmm… what shall I think of today?’’
My thoughts are mumbling to themselves, without a reason and without my consent

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Just like the man who’d drink to forget he is drinking
I think to forget I am thinking
But, beware! It’s a trap to think we can think without thinking
And I am condemned to be tricked inside my thoughts for eternity, forever conscious

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Isn’t it what we always do?
All day long, thinking about something to think of
Just like all the anxious who do, watch or eat things to fill, in vain, the scary void
I try to believe only happiness may fill that void

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But what the hell is happiness?

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I don’t know and I won’t attempt an explanation here, but meanwhile, I’ll think about it.

 

meh, i think the only thing to fill that void is work, or productivity of some kind... working will lead to happiness, etc..

love the 1st two lines of the second stanza

 

Personnaly I find imposed work to be extremely boring, while voluntary work is on the contrary very gratifying.
To me, art or any other form of self expression and creativity fills that void, but then again there is no absolute answer, it depends of your mood in the moment, and it depends of each person.