So I've been meditating by myself on and off for about a year...mostly just concentrating on breathing, maybe humming one pitch and tuning into it. Nothing fancy and only lasted for a max of 20 minutes and I didn't really get anywhere with it. Yesterday was day one of the mindfulness and meditation circle I've joined at school and I have to say...it was amazing. First exercise was just breathing. All it did was calm me down, I became neutral. A blank. Next was a guided meditation where we were gathered around a giant flame, feeding it our negative emotions or experiences or anything we needed to dispose of. This was an emotional rush, almost a high of all the sadness and depression I've been dealing with lately. I felt heavy, worn down. Last exercise I laid down and envisioned breathing in cold blue air, breathing out red toxins. For about twenty minutes we filled every muscle and every body part with good blue air. I was outside of my body, outside of sadness. I recognized it, I recognized happiness in my life. But I was beyond feeling it. I could see my form filling with blue air, releasing red air. I was out of the body, completely forgot about the room I was in or any of the people in the room. All I could see or feel was my blue body releasing red steam. When I lifted out of it I was still kind of outside of my body. I saw things that I see and did things that I do every day, but they were all sort of unknown to me. I had no emotional attachment to anything, and everything had an equality. Depression is tree is mother is carpet is food. But not in a bad sense. It was all equally wonderful. I think I'm addicted to meditation. What were your first time like? (first REAL meditation.)
That's a really cool expierence. I've tried guided meditation but I'm not very comfortable with it. I have better luck if I focus on my breathing, then focus on a certain idea, such as happiness or change. My first "real" meditation was like a white light expierence and yes, I felt addicted too. I've strayed from my meditation sessions, but am now using it as a behavoir to replace my nicotine addiction. It's working so far! Peace and love
See, guided meditation seems to be more effective for me. When I'm focusing on my breathing all I can think about is how uncomfortable I am. I'm sure as I become more seasoned in meditation I'll get better at that..but it just seems like the guided meditation is easier. good luck on quitting cigarettes!
Man,i guess im a little late on a reply but i jus read your story(knotdirty) and i was sucked in and pulled into it.I have only recently indulged in meditation and now im even more eager to reach such experiences. good stuff man peace
K, I have another story of my most recent deep meditation. Another guided meditation...one I found online. I'll try and find a link of it if anybody wants. It was the sort of "waterfall running through your body, streams of relaxation..." blah blah, and it leads you to find your own secret place. Wherever you're most comfortable and...I don't know, CLEAR. So my place is kind of wierd. It's like an egg shaped cavern, all misty and grey, and there's clear, clean water about halfway filling it. I'm floating in the water and looking up at the cieling of the egg-cave. there's a point at the very top of the cieling that's all smoke and swirls and glitter and rainbow. It's all very soft and hazy, and I just watch the slow movemeent of it all, feeling myself floating in the water. Here's the trip, I was actually there. i could see all of this like it was right in front of me. An hour later when I'm beign pulled out of this and I finally wake up...I can't move. My body is anchored to the floor. I have to lift every joint of every finger and toe separately, moving life back into everything. It felt like I was pulling roots out of mud. Awesome meditation.
Always remember what Donovan said"the natural high is the best high in the world" Breathing, meditation , appreciation for all things and opening your heart will help achieve that natural high. Appreciation feeds the spiritual beings around us, they draw closer when you acknowlege them... OmGanesha
