Approaching the magical 30

3 weeks without bud, now. My desire to learn and focus on one thing for more than an hr or two is returning, and my energy won't deplete. i was doing this to pass a drug test, but this time i quit everything with it:energy drinks, coffee, cigarettes. i don't think i'm turning back. i feel like i did when i was 15, except smarter and stronger. i'll check in here from time to time, but i want to officially say to this beautiful, semi-blissful, munchy-inducing, laughter increasing, ambition-decreasing world: farewell. i'll miss ya. wish me luck in not becoming an alcoholic-i turn 21 the day after tomorrow.

 

yeah okay mr. alcoholic ::sarcasm::

 

Don't say Willie Nelson didn't warn you. Smoke something quick...

 

......wait.......


what were we talking about?

 

lol have fun man we wish u well lol damn drunk

 

If u have already quit fags, coffee, energy drinks, and weed why dont you avoid alcohol too? Alcohol is more dangerous than weed is.

 

i plan on it. i am going to drink for my birthday, though. i'll probably get wasted off of a few beers, too. i'm nearly 100% clean, and i haven't drank in at least 6 weeks. shit, i guess it is my birthday now. happy birthday to me. according to that chick in waking life, we have a completely new body every 7 yrs. this last one started and ended with drugs. it all seems kinda meaningful. i'll try to take good care of this one.

 

hahaha youll get drunk then smoke a fatty.. watch youll seeee

 

i've only had one mixed coffee and alcohol drink, and i'm already feeling pretty impaired......in a nice way, i suppose. wow, drugs hitting rested neurons.......quite euphoric, nearly psychadelic. i don't think i'm turning back, man. from now on, mushrooms twice a year. if alcohol can do this much to a clean mind, i really must not have fully experienced what true psychadelics have to offer in the past. good luck to all of you, but i'm done getting high all the time. in the past 3 wks, i've caught up on 3 yrs. of taxes, got my ged ( i already earned my high school diploma, but that's a long "pity me" story i won't get into), got 2 jobs, and have nearly paid off the grand in past bills i was avoiding. i guess i just have an addictive personality, and now i'm addicted to being healthy and getting ahead. anyways, i think i'm getting close to a drunk rant (i'm into my second drink-damn, it used to take a 12 pack to make feel like this), and i'm gonna go relax and enjoy the rest of my uneventful birthday.

 

hahaha happy birthday
i totaly suport ya
but think by next year you'll toke on rare occassions
but you'll do fine

 

i won't disagree or agree with ya there, man. i'm going for self control, not extremism. if i can respect it, i may smoke. i don't plan on smoking for pleasure anymore, however. the few times i have waited and meditated on a pure high, it was very beneficial. problem was, i always ended up smoking again soon after, and it wasn't the same. i may need at least a few yrs of sober life to get a grip. i haven't been 100% sober for more than a week since i was 15. that's counting energy drinks, coffee, and cigarettes-they do count, trust me. realizing that was kind of scary, but also served as a very powerful source to draw strength from. being fully sober after all these yrs is like being reborn. anyways, that's an odd statement to make while being kinda drunk still. i wrote a couple of poems in my drunken state to see if it was worth anything. if you guys wanna check em out, you know where to look.

 

oh, and i totally dig the support, man. thank you for that.