i cant help but think of it, a lot lately. wondering if anyone ewould actually care if iw as gone, or would notice. if a faild attempt woudl give me an exucse for how pathetic my life has been lately. i hatemy life, i hate where its going, i hate having no motivation and not knowing/being able to create change. i feel stuck and i dont know how to un-stick myself. i just want ot slit my wrists and crawl into a tub, yknow? i dont feel like i have anythign to live for
Every human being is connected on a level of consciousness that transcends mere science, so yes, if you took your life we would all be diminished and saddened over your passing You're surrounded by love - you need only reach out and someone will be there. Hotwater
You're a fucking a putz. To the OP: Stick around for a while. If you don't like who you are, change. If people don't notice you, which I'm sure they do, be more extroverted. Dunno mang, you're young. Shit'll change. Might not feel like it, but it will.
not super young, 21... not in the throes of teenaeg hormonla inbalances that often turn out into deprssion i just dont feel like i have anythign to live for. and that shoudl make me sad, make me cry or somethign but i just feel numb about it
Well then just live for the sake of living, until you find something or someone worth living for Hotwater
- twat. I really feel for you, I really do. "How do people find the courage to live and die" - Peter J Conradi. There is nowhere else to start then wherever it is one finds themself. The very prupose of our life is to seek happiness. Whether one believes in religion or not. Whether one believes in this religion or that religion, we are all seeking something better in life. I believe happiness can be achieved through training of the mind. I used to believe that the most one could hope for was the transformation of hysteric mysery into common unhappiness. I think most of us share this view on the mysterious nature of happiness. In those moments of joy life brings, happiness feels like something that comes out of the blue. When I say training of the mind, I mean training of the Sem (psyche or spirit). By bringing a certain discipline, we can undergo a transformation of our attitude, our entire outlook and approach to living. I think I personally have found a measure of personal happiness and I think happiness can manifest as a simple willingness to reach out to others, to create a feeling of good will. Don't give up on life, i'm begging, or else there will be so much out there that you will never experience and know. There's a couple of books I recommend to buy. One of them is The Art Of Happiness - Dalai Lama. I aint religous myself and i'm not trying to put anything on you. I'm not just trying to offer some knee jerk solution, though I recommend this book. If u ever want to talk just Private Message me. If nothing else I'll listen to you. I don't know your life and won't pretend to.
Yeah, I know the feeling. I get depressed a lot and entertain suicidal thoughts. Overall, however, I would say that life is improving. One thing that I do to cope with my suicidal thoughts is split my thoughts up into two categories: 1) serious thoughts, and 2) fooey that's just running through my mind because of some emotional issue. Then, I follow a general rule of thumb: never commit to thoughts from the fooey category - They need to be evaluated in a fresh, rational, and non-emotional state of mind. I let myself dwell over them because one of the difficulties I haven't mastered yet is how do just simply turn off the negative emotions so that my mind is not flooded with negative thoughts. Just "pushing them out of my mind" never works - they're way too strong. But I do believe in what LittleJack said. I do believe in getting a handle on my own mind such that I can "re-program" it into a more healthy state. It's the only thing I know how to do. It doesn't work perfectly, but it's the best thing I've got.
You're depressed and need professional help. The thoughts you are experiencing are the result of chemicals in the brain and are not based in reality. Seriously, get anti-depressants as fast as you can.
ive tried professional help and it doesnt do much for me. i cant afford it either. nor can i afford anti depresents, monetarily or the whole trial and error process right now in finding the right fit. and from what ive heard of anti depressents, they typically mellow out everything, the deep lows and the high joys... i mostly feel numb already, dont need something that numbs you even more. my serotnin and thyroid and all else are normal too (well, thigns tested by bloodwork are normla)
heh, i love hte level of care in this place. i mean,t hakns to those who have replied but.. yeah. i guess its not a mental thealth forum though now is it? just, frustratin. i havea midterm in two days and i barely understand the class, i dont know nhow im gonna pass anything this term
everyone feels this way at one point or another, especially now a days our society has been shifting more towards the depressed and imbalanced there is so much to live for...as clouded as it may be right now it doesn't mean it's not there...beyond the fog, there is so much beauty..too much beauty to give up even though you are 21 and technically not a teenager anymore it doesn't mean that you've matured and had enough time to grow mentally and it's more than likely you're feeling over whelmed because of it it's not a bad thing to feel this way...but it would be a bad thing to not learn from it and grow from it and move past it...this will make you a stronger person, if you have the strength to be weak right now and accept people's help and support you may not be able to afford professional help right now but theres a wealth of knowledge online that can help you and lots of people here that can try and help you as well but you must realize that only you can over come, only you can help yourself i will always listen if you ever want to talk or need someone ~much love~
Allonym: I understand when you say you cant afford to see a doctor. There are systems in place to help you. Check with your school counselor about a referral to community mental health or other such agencies in your area. The fees are based on your ability to pay. But dear, get so help. It may seem dark now, but the sun will come out.........Dennis
K sweetheart, I would care. I'm so sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. I wish I knew what to say to help you that you haven't already heard many times before. Life sucks sometimes, it really does. But you need to hold onto the hope that it does and will get better for you. Just keep thinking ahead to positive times. It's bound to happen. You know, it's like they always say, life is what you make of it. Easier said than done, I know, but don't ever lose hope. Much love and hugs...
if ya are so depressed now it means ya need it need it to get stronger ya know this saying: what doesnt kill us makes us stronger? you wont kill yorself the very moment you'll think everything has no meaning life will give ya motivation
