everyone seems to think theres something wrong with my head. resently some of my close friends have told me that they where worried about my mental health said i was pushing it to far with the drugs that i should give my brain a rest. i didnt think any of this, as i know im not insane... i mean really who knows more about my brain then me? ...i know i think different from others but thats not cause im insane thats because iv experenced different things to other people and now have a different way of looking at reality, ok my memorys so bad that i forget what im doing while im doing it and yer i talk to my self but i only do that so i can hear what i need to do.... ill only talk to my self if have to do something then i have to tell my other self speaking out load what to do. its hard to explain like as if i have to check it with a different part of my own head. but its not like theres another person in my head. and when i see things move or warp or cats running past fast that arnt acturly there, all it is my mind filling in the gaps. i do get well bad paranoia which i hate! i apparently dont make alot of sence. but none of that means im mental. does it? naaaa ...i would know.....thing is i dont know how to prove them wrong i cant just show them my brain. and say see its not that MoOoOoSh! i dont even know what im asking in this. its abit of a rant/wantadvise i think. i hope it makes sence. aw well ,¸+¸,ø¤º[~Jac~] º¤ø,¸+¸, WhEn YoUr FeeLiNg DoWn AnD tHiNgS aRe TrAgGiC sMoKe A SPLIFF ItS FuCkiNg MaGiC!
Would you like to try and feel a little different...I pick up from your writing that you are a little "frantic".... It sounds to me like you have caring people around you....maybe it would serve you well if at times you listened to them and laid off the drugs.... When I was younger I used to listen to nobody lol....and guess what I do now...I intuite a message from my higher self and then I wait till it feels real and I get confirmation from others.... It always works... My intuition for you says "LISTEN"....i do feel you need to sometimes Sending luck and clarity to you <3
just be yourself and enjoy your life . it sounds like your friends have to much time on there hands , maybe they ought to reevaluate their own lifes
