Lately I've been sickened by porn...

Lately after masturbation I've felt really sickened. Like I'd look at my cum and just be disgusted at it(it looks too much like mucus). Also when watching porn I find that I am disgusted by vaginas. With all of those pink areas, the wetness, all those layers and then that long thing (I think the clit) it looks like the mouth of some sick creature. It's just nasty...I used to not mind but now for some reason I do...I used to love it when I saw porn of woman masturbating but now its just sickening to see them repeatedly, metaphorically of course, feeding their monsters mouth with their fingers(or object/s).

Masturbation just isn't the same anymore when you see the ugly side of sex...why did semen have to be so ugly? Why did vaginas have to be so ugly?

Actually after writing this thing I think I'll just start reading erotic writing so I don't have to see that ugliness...but what do I do about my cum? There is too much of it and its just disgusting...yuck...I shudder even thinking about it...milky white, thick, oozzing slowly down and sticking to everything it touches *literally is sick to the stomach*...

Also I used to want to masturbate multiple times (2nd time was fun cuz it lasted 30 mins, 3rd time could last 45 mins, 4th time could last an hour or more maybe? I forgot, haven't done it in a while) but now after my first orgasm I feel self-pitying(I guess its the hormones). Is there away of getting rid of this?

Thanks for reading, I love this place! Where else could I rant about such a non-accepted practice and still be accepted?!

 

hm ok weird.i find vaginas incredibly beautifulk..maye youve had somethinmg color your vission? somethin make sex seem ugly?

 

porn is, well, it shows sex but it's about making money. It's not there to make you feel better about yourself, at least not without some profit in there. But that's not it's intrinsic goal. I think you'd be a lot better off finding a partner to love and respect and care about, and discover the beauty of their bodies first hand, rather than the gynaecological shots used in most porns.

 

Absolutely!

 

I guess the pussy isn't for everyone.
I find pussy intoxicating, and adicting.
They look beautiful, they smell beautiful, and they taste wonderful.

Maybe you are gay and haven't discovered it yet.
After all, you are only 15.

In a few years maybe you will find a girl that you have feelings for and she will let you have sex with her.
If you don't want to see your cum or her pussy, keep the lights off.
And maybe she will remove the condom after you are done and she will clean you up and you can just lay there with your eyes closed.

 

Yea you are probably gay.
I mean i didnt see you complain about cock, just pussy.

 

gay

 

Actually thinking about it I never liked vaginas...not close up of it them atleast. I only used to watch softcore stuff taht didn't show that until recently...

No thank you, sorry. I do not need one, I am just fine all by myself.

Yea I guess the experience of the 'pussy' is better close up. I'm just not gonna watch porn anymore...only my imagination and erotica writing...

Jesus...ok thanks for pointing that out, and here you go: Cocks are disgusting and vile things to me (except for my own cuz I find mine very erotic).

But seriously, I think you only replied to have a reason to call someone gay...

 

You put the wrong name to the quote. I wrote that not Bongish.

And if a girl said, "ewww cock is disgusting i cant stand it", you would think she is a lesbian.

Its the same for you only the other way around. Just face it, you're gay.

 

Oh, shut up. Maybe you're gay, they say that people point out in others what they don't like in themselves. Still wanna keep on about it, kid?


I'll admit it, I don't really like guys. My husband was one HUGE exception and I still don't know exactly what it was about him, but I don't really like guys. I don't see most of them that way. Once in a while, usually only occasionally or for a couple/few days at a time, I can NOT stand to see cum. I'll swallow it, that's fine. But actually having to see it disgusts me. Like I said, it isn't all the time (if it was, I certainly wouldn't be with a man in the first place) but sometimes, it just completely grosses me out. No idea why.
It's normal. I'll say it again. It's normal. Especially at your age, you're just figuring things out, learning and discovering and all that fun. Maybe you're gay, maybe you're not. Who cares? You'll figure it all out in due time. Until then, don't worry too much, and don't be afraid to experiment.
Reading erotica actually sounds like a great idea to me, kudos to you for thinking of it so soon after you realized that porn disgusts you. Maybe it disgusts you because you know how much cock a porn star has seen. Not to say that porn stars are dirty or diseased, but they certainly aren't fresh and new either. At least in literature, a lot of the time, they make both male AND female sexual organs seem like beautiful things to be worshipped and adored.

 

Yeah, but that's the fun of it. Eating pussy is like making out with a great big slobbering she-demon.

Face it, you're gay.

 

Nothing more needs to be said, ihmurria is completely correct

 

I didn't say you "needed" someone, I just said that it's the best way to be appreciative of the genitals attached to them, is by being in a loving respectful relationship.

You almost sound asexual, but, you look at porn and assumably masturbate to it so you still have a libido. Yet you're grossed out by both sets of genitals? That's um... gonna suck for future partners of yours, unless they have remarkably low libido's.

 

not only gay, but apparently awfully stupid as well.

 

I'm not gay, Bongish and everyone else insisting that I am. Also Bongish I made a mistake when doing the quote thing, I must have copied the wrong name. I can make a simple mistake and not have my intelligence insulted, right?

Asexual? *looks it up* Oh... which am I supposed to feel more bad about? Being considered gay (I have no bias feelings toward homosexual people by the way, its just that it is usually used as a derogatory term) or being considered sexless...I think being considered sexless is worse .

And also I'm not 'grossed' out by peni, I'm just not gay. When I said I was, I was being sarcastic. I'm sorry I think it was too subtle to be considered sarcasm. xD

I just reread this and got the full humor of it. very funny.

 

Also let me say that I had 2 ogs today. Thats creepy for me to say, but oh well.

I used my full imagination. The solution is to slowly masturbate, that way the hormones will be released slowly as you do more precum--and as you get used to the hormones by the time you yada yada, you will be ready to continue and won't feel bad about anything...

Thats my theory of it atleast. Also, in my imagination version of it, the pussy is a beatifully magnificent thing. Its a shame that in reality the pussy is a ugly and sickening to me.

 

Royalstar - at 15 you are not too long past the onset of your puberty, when you started having strange feelings of arousal which seemed to take over your body. At first, it is scary to have this happen to you, and be compelled by some force inside you to masturbate and make a sticky mess, but you come to realize that this is a natural, healthy part of life, as is sex and intercourse, and you come to appreciate that a woman's vagina was created to fit exactly with your penis. If you are lucky, someday you will make a baby with a woman, having simultaneous orgasms so that for an instant your two bodies melt into one at the moment of creation. It happened to me and my late wife many years ago, and the result was identical twins.

 

Exactly.

 

Yes, adult.
You're ridiculous to be honest. If i was gay i would be proud and i'd admit it. I wouldn't call other people gay just to make me feel better.
You're taking a stab at me because i called a GUY who DOESN'T LIKE PUSSY gay. You realise how stupid you are being?
No you probably don't.

 

Dude,

I think you've just overdone things in a big way, and your body is telling you to slow it down.

Life is all about balance, and a lot of times our bodies know better than we do and will send us messages, if we only know how to listen.

It also seems that you have been using some pretty hard-core stuff, clearly too hard-core for you, or else you wouldn't have written what you did. You may want some softer stuff. There are images that are very artistic and beautiful. Everyone's taste is different. You don't need to apologize to anyone for what you like.

It's also funny thing how context changes everything. Speaking from personal experience, there are some things that I find wonderful and exciting in the moment, but that start looking like big, smelly messes and laundry headaches soon afterwards.

Just give it a rest, and you'll be fine.