Newbie waiting for his salvia to arrive

Hello,
I ordered some salvia from the internet and am just waiting for it to arrive. I can't wait to see what 'She' has to tell me. I'm not wanting to try salvia 'just cause,' or because a friend said to try it.
I lost my father in Sept. 06. I've been having a real hard time with losing him. I'm hoping that salvia can allow me to get in touch with him one more time, and to maybe end some of my grief.

Now, my question is, if I were to concentrate on thoughts of my father, would that help me at all to 'see' him, or would that just interrupt the plants own agenda for what it wants me to see? Also, since thoughts of my father are always running through my head, would these sub-consious thought influence seeing him as well?

Any thoughts would be greatly appreciated.

Thanks,
Roots

 

I lost my father young.
yet he is part of me and of everything i see, i can't make it more than that or less.
you will dream of your father when you fell like you should.
there are things he has told you which you may not remember for 50 years.
such is the treasure or curse of living and losing someone you love.
salvia is a kind of medicine that puts you more in touch with your dreaming.
you do not need to push it in any direction.
what happens is natural.
the big thing in your life is you. since your father is not here, you will miss a lot of encouraging things that you must provide for yourself.
this is ok.
his shape is already in you.
and the echo of his voice is already in you.
you don't need salvia for that.
work at your school as best you can.
no learning is ever wasted.
be excellent is everything - this makes rolling it all together even better, there is a kind of participation that the father particles will have in everything you do.