I don't know what to do with my life...

God, I am so confused...
I know I wanna write, but what follows, ya know?
How do I...live? How do I make a living?
Writing is great and all, but history proves that only a select few of us ever hit it big enough to depend on it for income.
People are all talkin' about college, and I'm all...Shit, I don't know. It just doesn't seem right.
It's so...expected.
You graduate high school, you go to college, you get a good job, get married, have kids, and then die.
I don't wanna live like that...ever.
But what else is there for me to do?
Everything I'm good at, I just couldn't live off of it.

I got an offer to go live in Greensboro with some girlfriends if I graduate early next year.
I'd work as a telephone operator for minimum wage, and then probably end up going to school at UNCG.
But that's not what I want. At all.
I want to move out.
SO bad.
But I'm so afraid of living a life that's only mediocre.
It's probably the only thing I can honestly say I'm scared of.
Settling.

What's to become of me...?

 

Go to college, and try to figure it out then. You're still young... shit, most people can't figure their life out in their entire lifetime.

I myself have no fucken clue of what I'm doing in this world... but I try not to dwell upon it as much as I used to.

Just do your thing, see what happens, and do not stress yourself with the future... just make sure to not fuck it up through indecision.

 

tour with a band

 

You do not want to be a writer...if you do go to school and major in journalism so you can start out as an assis. editor. I am laid off and because of that am freelancing...I get 30 bucks a page...IF my piece gets selected.
Go to college join a sorority and spend your late teenage years being drunk and stupid with a bunch of other drunk and stupid people. i've had some times in my life that people would assume are pretty exciting but nothing was as fun or as exciting as my first two years in college.

 

you sound just like me. We should go be lost together.

 

What the writer lady said...

But... don't join a sorority. If you do join one, I'd have to murder you.

 

Ive found the thought of college absolutely terrifying... I dropped out to avoid college.. I got a job.. to avoid college... got my GED to get closer to college possibilities.. got a better job to avoid college... got a boyfriend.. to avoid college... broke up with said boyfriend to avoid college....

got another BF and suddenly I totally want to go to college but I think Im dumb as a box of rocks now... so ehhh its hard telling..

I think that our life is pre-written we just dont know it.. and we just kind of read the pages with each day we go.. like one big story... a novel that never really ends... I dont know.. Im going into mindless babble..

 

I know the feeling and I have the answer. When this Summer rolls around, I think I'm getting in my car and not coming back to Virginia until something interesting happens.

 

I have no idea either Kryz...

Lately I just want to fall in love and frolic around in the meadow...

Ah, realism...

 

I'm bout to start hitchhiking. Head off into some other place, stay there for a few months, get a job, make a bit of cash, and head out again.

Constantly starting from nothing, meeting new friends, and finding the place I REALLY want to settle down for a while.

 

You're so young still, you'll probably end up changing your mind about what you want at least a gazillion times.. I'm 22, about to graduate from university and I have no clue what I want to do with my life. But it's alright, I have plenty of time to figure it out. Anyway... Maybe it's not what you want to hear, but having a degree definitely helps you a long way. So even if college doesn't sound so tempting right now it will still be very useful for you in the future if you just go anyway. And besides, being a student is so easy... You have all the freedom in the world, very little to worry about and it's also a lot of fun. Maybe it's not your thing and I'm not saying everyone should go to college but like you said yourself... writing alone wouldn't probably pay your bills and feed you. It doesn't matter if you're not 100% sure about what you want, just like Rubin said... don't dwell in it. But like he also said, don't fuck up your future by being indecisive either.. Because if you worry about everything and think about everything too much, then sooner than you think you'll realize you're 43 and that you haven't really done anything with your life. Time goes by so fast, make the most of it... But maybe I'm getting side-tracked now...

And also too... if you do decide to go to college, get a good job, get married, have children and a mortgage, and all that... it doesn't mean that your life is mediocre. What matters the most is happiness. I used to think I'd never want to live like that either, but now... it actually sounds kinda appealing. In ten years' time or so. Maybe. But who knows... Anyway, my point is that your happiness is what matters. Do whatever you think may make you happy... But that's me rambling, I'll stop now..

Good luck, I hope you'll figure out what you want, but if not.. well that's okay too. Just.. be happy.

 

The whole point of college is that you can do more things afterwards, not less.

Everything from travelling/emigration to buying that piece of property on that private lake to general economic freedom gets easier. Assuming you do it without being swaddled in debt.

 

If one thing is for sure... if that doesn't work, it'll be a life lesson on debts.

 

hey!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Quick... someone grab a kabar.

(The world could use dark humor, these days.)

 

if you have to opportunity to go to college and your parents are paying for it, go for it. its a great way to spend a few years of your life in limbo when you dont know what to do. its great to think about the future now, but like others said before dont dwell on it.

and remember, there is no shame in dropping out when you feel the time is right

write till your dead, thats for sure.

 

There kind of is, dunno. I'm pretty convinced that most of the time (though not all the time) people dropping out because "college wasn't right for them" simply smoked too much weed, didn't study enough, or didn't show up enough. If failing something that quite simply isn't that hard isn't shameful, what is?

 

ok......if i can be so insistent in saying......dont go to college if you dont want to!!!!!!!
Why does everyone feel like they have to go right afterwards? Take a break...do some traveling....get shit outta your system. I did. For 6 years. Now, im back in school, i know waht i want to study, i know what i want to do.(and, i like it and am kicking ass) And all those realiations came to me as I was roaming around, checking things out.

The way I see it, life isnt a race. Why do we feel this need to run right through it? You will never be this age again. Enjoy this time! If you go to college when you "should" if you dont want to, you wont be doing anything but wasting time and money.

So, go on girl!!! get on the road!!! do waht your heart wants to do!!!It never lies!!!(and write a kickass memoir along the way!)

 

and its a great way to waste YOUR time and THEIR money(after you turn 24....the government pays for you to go!!!)

you waste credits.....and ends up being a huge hassel if you ever want to go back. If you think of dropping out, just dont even bother going!!!

 

I think that kind of thing should be the norm, don't you?